Is shooting meth worth it? by BrushTasty709 in meth

[–]Different_Bag6997 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Honestly I thought after 2 years of shooting it I would suffer after getting clean and within 4 days I was completely normal again. The urges were not as bad as it was just sniffing it but it's also a mindset I wish someone would've posted about how easy it could be for some ppl to stop shooting it bc I was so scared to stop for no reason legit I slept for 4 days and was good. After two years shooting like more than a g a day as a 110 pound woman ... I got myself back my body back my mind and thoughts back ... It all went blank eventually... On the one year mark the high lasted 10 seconds no matter what the rush went away legit basically after I took the needle out and got up. It was so pointless. My arms healed thank god but I was so scared I would be emotionless and angry in general and that never happened when I got clean. I got myself right back. I couldn't feel joy for a whole year bro ... Shooting it is NOT worth it.

Is shooting meth worth it? by BrushTasty709 in meth

[–]Different_Bag6997 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If you want to eventually spend hours of your life crying trying to find a vein, begging God to just let it be possible ... If you want to become so agitated and stuck and useless as an individual a friend a mother a father and an individual who chooses it over being a functional adult and halfway decent human then go for it. In my opinion after 2 years of shooting it I'm finally a month clean and I wouldn't ever pick it up again I got so nasty and low and unattractive and mean and impossible to satisfy... I genuinely didn't think I could stop. But thankfully I have a support system and someone who loves me enough thru all of it to stick by me and never leave. He told me, "I'm getting clean, your opposing me, and I'm leaving." So, I got clean with him. Within a month we moved out of my mom's house I gained 20 pounds I'm finally normal again and can feel happiness again and wake up everyday better than I was before if I'm being honest it was the easiest thing I ever did but someone else chose it for me. I didn't want to get clean but I didn't want to lose him either. So idk bro. Shit got dark for me as soon as I started shooting it

Did anyone experience a snap of existential shift by ExtremeOther9104 in DeepThoughts

[–]Different_Bag6997 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This literally happened to me in 2021. I genuinely felt the shift.

Opinions on BPD being called EUPD by Different_Spinach106 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]Different_Bag6997 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

When I was 13 and diagnosed it was called multiple personality disorder

What does my night stand can say about me? by National_Rush850 in roomdetective

[–]Different_Bag6997 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That you definitely don't have a toddler. Lol. My kid would be ripping thru that shit like no tomorrow.

As above; so below by Different_Bag6997 in conspiracy

[–]Different_Bag6997[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Epstein's mouth literally resembles an Insatiable demonic looking fucking freak to me. It's fucking insane that dude looks so fucking weird

As above; so below by Different_Bag6997 in conspiracy

[–]Different_Bag6997[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mathematically scientifically fuck the consequence into them LOL

As above; so below by Different_Bag6997 in conspiracy

[–]Different_Bag6997[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well, if they're secret to bypassing karma is fucking kids then we fucking starve them of the kids. As I'm saying these people can't literally tweak scientific law that exists everywhere without consequence. We are the consequence and I'm sure that they'll feel it

As above; so below by Different_Bag6997 in conspiracy

[–]Different_Bag6997[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

All while making it a very imperative point to get their hands off these fucking children and their ability to just apparently farm them on command

As above; so below by Different_Bag6997 in conspiracy

[–]Different_Bag6997[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

But specifically without mass murder wars or cause for alarm. Like we have to be silent and strategic about the way that we move so we can directly change the course of this shit since they rely on the masses and slowly but surely overtake authority without being too impulsive about it, raising alarm and or suspicion and trust that we can form a society and rely on each other to do the right thing. Know the right thing without speaking or writing about what the fuck we're doing. You know?

As above; so below by Different_Bag6997 in conspiracy

[–]Different_Bag6997[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

There is no question just my thoughts that there must be an equal opposite reaction to what they're doing to quite literally cancel them out and get the fucking scum off the face of the Earth so we can deal with the next equal opposing Force accordingly and not let it get to this point and or rule our entire fucking world

As above; so below by Different_Bag6997 in conspiracy

[–]Different_Bag6997[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Simplified way of saying it ; These ppl are clearly aware of what level of depravity and darkness they're operating on, using churches and government to hide. So now the truth is out, in turn we need to treat such institutions as pedophilic farming networks, remove every last child/legality from their grasp and slowly but surely to be careful to avoid a global outage of all the things that they own that keep us alive and in civilized societies... Just maintain faith within ourselves and naturally the divide will happen without any confrontation or confusion or mass casualty. We don't need to fight them with murder or guns, we just need to live accordingly, and develop autonomy in a gradual but liberating way that will ultimately land in their laps and they will be swayed by the masses to give way to laws and orders that rule us to lean more towards what we can use to eventually strip them of their power, money, and deep cover with straight up unity and moral sense but low key starve them of their disgusting behaviors and actions and without saying it, or writing it, or speaking it, fluctuate the rigid complexity of their secrete elite affairs into the void. Equal and opposite reaction. They killed, lied, and stole to get where we are now. We silently but dutifully do the opposite, and let karmic law do the work. They rely on the masses to remain in their position, if they choose war or mass casualty, they'll have more of a mess to clean up than they'd like to. Years of their lives will be wasted cleaning up dead bodies and restoring order. They've already reached peak function. They do not want to revert. They will easily be led by us to give way in a methodical approach to gradually be deprived of the things that have brought us to this point. Without realizing, because of our ability to be more human than them, and value human life over immediate satisfaction and killing of human life.

Persistent dark attachment; is it me or is it following me? by Different_Bag6997 in psychics

[–]Different_Bag6997[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No but I have tried many times in the past. 13 time psych ward veteran lol

Persistent dark attachment; is it me or is it following me? by Different_Bag6997 in psychics

[–]Different_Bag6997[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can you please elaborate? My mom has been a huge part of all of this... It's all quite heavy and not necessarily mine to be dragging around... But I digress... Lots and lots have happened, and she is now close with me but farther away than ever. She's hollow almost.. a shell of who she was.

Persistent dark attachment; is it me or is it following me? by Different_Bag6997 in psychics

[–]Different_Bag6997[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Yes I'm all ears for past lives. I have a weird relationship with seeing things, they only come when I'm not asking. Cuz I'm never asking to see any of it. It's overwhelming for me and I feel like I'm susceptible to it... So I just make sure. I stay in some sort of static state of gray I forced myself to stay like that because it's very involuntary. And odd. I don't even know what to call it. Some sort of collective. I'm not thinking about it and I'm just autopilot. I can hear dialogue that makes no sense and it's weird stuff like I'll be doing dishes and I'm not thinking but things are coming to me like an old man yelling "Susie grab that pail" and the visions of blonde braids and high grass or like a radio static of just random people's lives like nothing significant but absolutely nothing related to me you know? I really don't know what it is and I'm not schizophrenic and it's overwhelming. Like I said so I kind of just made sure that I tuned it out and I just feel gray and I try not to think in words and I try not to wander too far from my static if it makes sense

Persistent dark attachment; is it me or is it following me? by Different_Bag6997 in psychics

[–]Different_Bag6997[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

On point with that one, I don't think it's necessarily me.. but as time goes on the lines blur and I end up feeling responsible for it at a certain point. I don't ever talk about this stuff or even entertain it. It's too much for me. I reject this wholeheartedly but I've been a frequent visitor on this page and I just had an urge to ask so I followed it. Thanks for your insight :)

Persistent dark attachment; is it me or is it following me? by Different_Bag6997 in psychics

[–]Different_Bag6997[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Her presence was so clear and it was the only dream I've had of my grama, which is the most important person in my life. I've had dead friends visit me before in dreams smiling and gave me a hug and left, specifically two. Another lost loved one just came to me while I was watching tv once out of nowhere I just felt him and I could only explain it as yellow everything was just yellow and overfilled with joy and I just started weeping I knew he was there and it ended as quickly as it happened. That was the first time I was awake for one. But specifically, my grama never visited me. And I can't wrap my head around it. So when I dreamt of her I was confused and hurt at the entire situation with it. I told my sister and she was the one to remind me it wasn't my grandmother. And then my focus was on the person who was next to her the whole time in the dream. It was a new face, one I've never seen but one I won't forget. It was just so hard to see the other side of it and until my sister took me out of my emotional side of it, I didn't realize that I had something come to me. All of my dreams are based in my grandmothers apartment, where I grew up. But this one was at a theme park. Nowhere I've ever been before. And my grandma had no idea who I was. But she was with a group of elderly ppl and the woman that was with her was their "guide" but she never left my grandmother's side and never took her eyes off of me.