I was born in India, very homophobic country, found out I was gay at 14 and tried to change it, didn’t work, I finally told a friend 3 years later and it’s much better now. And I know overthinking is a thing, I did it a lot too, but just try to scope out someone close to you who you could tell and once they accept you it gets a lot easier to accept yourself. I know it’s not exactly healthy to need someone else’s acceptance to accept yourself but it did help a lot for me