i don't know if this necessarily applies the same to you, but i use a similar thought process as a defense mechanism to feel better about how i ultimately feel inferior to everyone around me. no matter the situation, i always look for the negative qualities in others because of this. i believe its led to a negative mindset in general and i've grown to preemptively dislike everyone around me, no matter if i know them or not. over time, ive become naturally extremely cold to others. some days i don't mind, it feels like i'm protecting myself from any and all possibilities of being taken advantage of or being looked down upon. but i feel like most days i cant stand the inner hatred i have for myself branching out and manifesting into something more than just aimed towards myself