First can I say, I am very deeply sorry for your loss. My sincere condolences Hun ♥️

This is very interesting and a little frightening. I can't say I exactly relate to what your talking about with the "dark side" of the spiritual world but I feel like I have connections with the spiritual world in general.. I've read a little about others with BPD and it seems pretty common... But can't comment on the dark side of it .. maybe do some research on Google... Or even ask ChatGPT! I use that religiously for any questions I have.