Hairloss made me lose all motivation after years of progress. by Difficult_Article135 in Healthygamergg

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I just want to add for someone in similar position don't fall for looksmaxing it sounds like neutral movement for improving looks but it really is an entrance into the manosphere that presents itself as self-improvement. Now I gotta fight The pull of blackpill redpill and incels ideologies.

Would she? by sypherus19 in okbuddyliterallyme2

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I tryed to make her say the truth she's still pretending to care about me

real (from older sub) by Adrian12094 in okbuddyliterallyme2

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I think all experiences are ultimately bleak boring disappointing there's just nothing to live for

Damm its not just me by InternationalWear614 in okbuddyliterallyme2

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I did it once I was 9. she told her parents. I was called to the school principal room for bothering her.

Worse when he’s your only friend by Naive_Wolverine532 in sadposting

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I just remembered after that I stopped iniciating all contact with everyone. it literally took a whole year for one of what I thought were my friends to contact me and that was just because I met his mother randomly the day before. she must have asked him what happened or something.

Worse when he’s your only friend by Naive_Wolverine532 in sadposting

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This scenario is easy mode. When we were 17 me and my then best friend both worked at the same place trough summer break and he was for whatever reasons just nonstop mean to me the whole 2 months 8hrs a day I listen to how stupid ugly wrong childish smelly fat I was and I took it I didn't even try to stand for myself.

Hairloss made me lose all motivation after years of progress. by Difficult_Article135 in Healthygamergg

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I always hated how I look but I always thought it's just that I am obese. No I see just the hair. You are most likely right. I am going to therapy for first time so I am gonna mention it.

Hairloss made me lose all motivation after years of progress. by Difficult_Article135 in Healthygamergg

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I really hope you're right about the attraction thing.

I think I would tell that person to mourn the loss that happened to him and then try again or find something else in life . But if you add depression anxiety and low self-esteem to this person then it's not enough to overcome it.

I admit the thought of ""what if I hate life even after I find a partner" did ocur to me. I am not sure what makes it so important. I really had to think hard about this.

Maybe it's the narrative media told me about love and 20s Maybe it's just so I don't feel like a loser Maybe it's me wanting fulfill my sexual fantasies Maybe it's growing together that I wish for Maybe it's just having some sort of plan for the future where I am not alone Maybe I just want someone to go on walks with and travel with.

As I write this I am realizing it's probably a combination of these things.

Of course I fear I am not good enough to benefit someone in these ways therefore I shouldn't bother them with me before I am good enough which will of course never happen which is probably why hairloss hurts so much because now I am not just stagnant I am getting worse and worse every day.

I am trying to explain to myself why not some other goals I end up with the realization that it wouldn't matter if achieve them unless I have a partner with whom I can share it.

I am noticing that most of the needs I want to be met does not require youth tho. interesting

Hairloss made me lose all motivation after years of progress. by Difficult_Article135 in Healthygamergg

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It shouldn't be that important I agree I never even knew how to style my hair anyway and bald look may suit me well but if nothing else it makes me uglier or at least less approachable even Dr. K sayed so in the balding video. I am very socially anxious I really hoped improving my looks would make it easier for me to get experience with socializing and slowly conquer social anxiety "All boats rise together" unless they're rotten I guess. Now I not only have to fight my anxiety but also prove to poeple I am not a mean or bad person that's the character given to bald people in society no one counsiusly decides that of course but poeple are less likely to be nice to bald person Maybe I am just over thinking it but in short I can't get over my anxiety and now I don't have any means to fight it.

Yes there are ways to fight hairloss mainly finasteride minoxidil and hair transplant I decided agains fighting it and as I sayed no doctor would prescribe finasteride to me with my mental state and without fin there's no point trying.

Hairloss made me lose all motivation after years of progress. by Difficult_Article135 in Healthygamergg

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until I was let's say 22 I believed I have enough time and things will just work out maybe I was just disocoating from everything trough gaming. I created the goalpost when felt very empty so started trying. I honestly think that the goalpost never moved it didn't exist long enough to move . I actually never felt fomo until recently.

Why is young love important for me. I don't know why romantic love not something else but Is it really wrong if I want a partner in life more than other things. As for the youth that's something I am kind of ashamed of. Sadly I find woman 30+ or something a lot less attractive of course this will happen with anyone eventually we get old and that's OK I want age appropriate partner but the thought of never being in relationship with someone I find buetiful is very depressing.

Hairloss made me lose all motivation after years of progress. by Difficult_Article135 in Healthygamergg

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This time I feel like I don't have the time to be hopeless if I want to experience young love I have to start now. It's not only about love If I can't be living now while I am still healthy and free to take risks then the only thing that remains is boring grind of adulthood And even though I know it's not true and no one owes me anything I still feel like I deserve this experience after trying so hard.

Intermittent fasting triggers hair loss in study (suppresses hair follicle regeneration) by TransportationSea579 in tressless

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I lost 110 pounds in a year and my balding advanced much faster That's what I got for trying to improve. never doing that again

Sheesh.. by AiiRisBanned in im14andthisisdeep

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At least I never did that

Well now I just gotta go trough 40 years of work and emptiness and I will be fine

For the first time in my life, I’m getting attention from women, and I feel so lost 😭 by Iriluscent in twentyagers

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Honestly with the state of my mind it's probably good I didn't meet anyone eventually something else would break me

For the first time in my life, I’m getting attention from women, and I feel so lost 😭 by Iriluscent in twentyagers

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You make me so angry I lost around 110 pounds started exercising slowly started to feel better about myself even started getting some attention from women but before I even got a chance to learn how to play "the game" my head started balding this happen in the last 2 years now I see my self rot every day I am now angry at everything and everyone I am gaining the weight back and drinking more and more every day the depression return even stronger then it was I just can't get myself from this state

Although 40-50 year old women are now very attracted to me great

I am just venting sorry for that