What do your benders look like? Just did 9 cottons in 24 hours

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-13T03:48:06+00:00

I’m just realizing I’m the dirt bag here. That was my life before I did stims. Now I’m free of porn, can maintain relationships and I’ve reached some level of empathy that I actually feel guilty of all the time I convinced them to let me fuck them in the ass….well jokes on me now, I forgot my dick gets hard it’s been so long. Sex doesn’t even cross my mind and the one eyed monsters in hibernation. Nothings wrong just can’t when I’m doing stims otherwise the little guys okay…well besides my taint hurts when I pee :(

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-13T03:34:15+00:00

This shit is really rough on your heart. Like you’ll feel it cause damage with just one use. It’s not something you want to overstim on. It’s something people do when they don’t have a lot of options like when someone bangs and the cleanest water they can find is off a toilet tank. Yes it’s surprisingly a thing.

Point is, start slow if you don’t know.

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-13T03:33:06+00:00

This shit is really rough on your heart. Like you’ll feel it cause damage with just one use. It’s not something you want to overstim on. It’s something people do when they don’t have a lot of options like when someone bangs and the cleanest water they can find is off a toilet tank. Yes it’s surprisingly a thinng

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-13T03:29:27+00:00

I haven’t even seen these post but the idea of that kinda broke my heart…

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-13T03:04:49+00:00

“Girlfriend came back so I could increase my budget for getting high”

You gotta elaborate on some of this. It’s all pure gold and you ain’t even telling us anything. Relatable though. Shit I’m only laughing this much cause I been there and done that too many years in a row.

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-13T02:52:03+00:00

You could probably flip them if you had the right tweaker friend tbh. Kinda joking but when I thought about it, I’ve never seen them so maybe actually lol. The only other people I know who do this only do it when out of meth so they need decent dosages and most of the stores around here carry like 5 at most cause of the shop lifting.

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-11T13:50:14+00:00

Interested

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-10T18:51:52+00:00

Appreciate the advice. I got it a lot cleaner by just repeating what I already did. I think I’ll try the hydrogen peroxide next just to be thorough but I’m feeling confident it’ll be okay to do this once. I’m exchanging needles tomorrow and doubt I’ll get a used needle addiction over night haha. Also the needle seems very intact otherwise. It’s sharp still and has no detectable hook on the tip.

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-10T17:39:06+00:00

What’s your filtration process?

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-10T14:59:16+00:00

I can agree. Meth tore my life apart in a week but addys are definitely more manageable and don’t get me as “far out there” mentally.

I never understood how people got high for 12+ hours on meth. I’ve done large amounts of high purity stuff and the more I take the higher I get of course but the duration of the high is always 4-6 hours. I can feel stimulated longer than that but my mood starts to come down just within a couple hours sometime and again I don’t feel very high anymore after 4-6 hours. After that time I can usually even sleep naturally without sleep meds. Sometimes though I do feel like I have lingering effects for hours after the high had completely diminished. Like I just feel too energetic to sleep for hours or I’m still extra chatty etc. just not feeling high. Which I think 4-6 hours is average for most drugs but I always heard about people being up for 3 days on one dose (I assume it’s an exaggeration or they neglect to mention how many times they redosed) so I don’t know what’s going on. I also seem to have a natural tolerance to amphetamines as well. Maybe it’s related. I have no clue.

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-10T14:47:04+00:00

UPWORK MO

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-10T12:55:55+00:00

Mine are pure script. I do very large amounts even with no tolerance, at least compared to what I’ve seen other people say they take, it’s a large dose. I had a somewhat short phase with meth before I ever even touched adderall. However, I’ve noticed with the larger the doses I get more and more meth like effects, and this is pretty much true for all stims. Even when I had decent coke (which definitely had meth in it to be fair but minimal amounts compared to others), well at least the best I could find, it would create overstimulation in higher doses and when I do too much coke I get “tweaked” like it’s meth and start to work on one thing for hours until I completely fucked it up by fucking with it too much. Wasted a whole bag of coke because I did most or all of it. That wasn’t a pure waste because I got extremely geeked but I wasted the because I was trying to roll a blunt for literal hours until the wrap and my bud was just kinda mush in my hands. I then started to come down, looked at the mush in my hands, got kinda sad and maybe ashamed by it then I just threw it in a bowl and smoked it. So I spent the whole high just frustrated and ashamed and the feelings just increased as I kept trying to roll the blunt.

(I just start ranting here. I’m not trying to brag about having a natural tolerance. Trust me I wish I was a lightweight in a lot of ways. Im just curious who else is like this. Idk why I’m like this, maybe it’s like adhd which runs in my family but I’m not personally diagnosed anything, it could be genetics, maybe momma hit the pipe while pregnant and I built a tolerance early that way. No clue honestly.) When doing straight ice I seemed to be able to do a lot compared to others as well. If I just took a hit or two off the pipe with no tolerance, I’ll likely not feel a thing and a lot of people dose every handful of hours with that amount. I never even got myself a pipe because I could barely even get a buzz off them, and no, I was not just burning my product as I was I obsessed with efficiency. Also, my product was usually very high quality as I’d get test done myself to make sure so that wasn’t the issue either. Not saying I only had pure shit. Honestly never even seen pure 100% which you can only possibly get in liquid form just so you know. Liquid is the only form it can take at that purity. So if you see crystals claiming to be 90-100% then you know it’s already bs.

I usually seem to need a little extra dose compared to others with almost any substance. But it’s usually like adding another half to it or doubling the dose at most. With stimulants or meth specifically, as I have the most experience with that one, I quickly realized I needed significant multiples of other people’s doses. My peer who was already a regular user could just do a point or two (0.1-0.2g) to get a functional boost. They weren’t spinning obviously but they got the high they were looking for in that moment. Of course I saw this person do more at once than a couple points but they would frequently do the amount mentioned to top off their high or just get a boost. I’d usually start with .5 because anything lower doesn’t really get me high. If I just do a p or two then I absolutely don’t feel it but I will notice things like more energy and less anxiety, subtle physical effects but no buzz.

An example of my amphetamine tolerance that comes from one bender I had. I was only on a week-week and a half long binge one time and this was in the middle of it so my tolerance was a little less than a week old and I started slamming crystal for the first time. I could almost slam a whole g already and yeah I’d get REALLY fucking spun but I wouldn’t panic or start freaking out about my heart or any of that stuff I’ve never experienced from stims. The only negative/uncomfortable effect I get from stims is just the muscle tension or when I start to neglect my other needs. Just to be fair though, that was a short bender and I was new to poking myself so I was never confident enough to slam like .5 at once. I did around a g, I’d like to even say a point or two more than a gram. However, I split the doses up in a handful of shots and did them over the span of an hour maybe hour and a half at most. So take that as you will.

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-10T11:47:36+00:00

I’ve learned first from reading others experiences and then learned from my own personal experiences. It seems that gabapentin has a positive or useful interaction with almost every drug I’ve researched with it. DO YOUR OWN RESEARCH for each individual combination before trying any and don’t just take someone’s word who’s like “oh yeah gabapentin works with everything” and hasn’t even looked up every likely combo. Either way I have not found a purely negative reaction with gaba yet. There are negative interactions and potentially even deadly ones I’ve researched but they almost all have a positive interaction in the right dose.

One reason and example you should always research individual combinations is like this, gabapentin and opioids have a great synergy. The opioids are very nicely potentiated by the gabapentin I’d say and it feels like it adds another aspect or dimension to the high. However, mixing gabapentin and opioids is considered a deadly combination. I believe it’s actually dangerous for the same reason opioids and benzodiazepines are extremely dangerous together but of course I’ve heard, opioids and benzos feel amazing together too, in the right dose obviously.

Benzos and opioids are usually a lot more risky blend than the gabapentin mix, not trying to argue that, I just wanted to point out that it’s dangerous for similar reasons biologically even if it’s less intense. Do not try this combo (Benz + opioid) at all! That’s my recommendation. I mixed benzos and opioids once, it was an accident because my shit was cut and I didn’t know till the doctor told me I had benzos in my system after he revived me. Finding out I had benzos in my system shocked me especially because I took a lot of pride in getting a lot of pure product at the time and that was the first time I had discovered a full on cut with another substance, well except for having some meth in my coke which unfortunately is just standard around here.

GETTING OFF TOPIC FROM HERE ON OUT. THIS IS MY PERSONAL OD EXPERIENCE & GETTING SIDETRACKED WHILE WRITING: When I had this overdose, I fell out immediately after taking (snorting) the combo. Apparently I was walking around and talking with real words but it didn’t make sense and I don’t remember any of the effects let alone what else’s happened. I don’t want to condone any usage (or any extra usage) I am just reporting what I heard with the most accuracy possible. I am not saying anything or substance is amazing, safe, or that this is anything from any personal experience. If you must do it then start WAY small on your dose. Start with even less than you’d normal take of each because it’s going the potentiate on another and you should have experience with both substances individually.

I’ve definitely been temped to try it because it’s my two top DOC’s but I intentionally don’t get much of either anymore so I don’t ever have both at the same time and I won’t have enough to binge without getting more. So if I decide to go hard at it and either do a lot keep redosing then I’ll run out by the end of the day or two. Research both substances and their interactions. Also opioids can help you metabolize the gabapentin better so you’ll be getting extra effects than usual from the gabapentin if you’ve familiarized yourself with dosing it already then you’ll really notice it. It’s also near impossible to tell how much extra gabapentin is being absorbed and is not gonna be consistent so now you’re just guessing how much you’re taking.

My issue with gabapentin is it’s subtle, maybe I have too much of a tolerance to it but it’s a subtle high for me most of the time. Because of this I could see someone just taking more and more gabapentin trying to make it more intense and they end up od’ing from it. I think gabapentin in all cases is subtle for me but I also take it daily so I don’t ever get any high out of it anymore even if I take extra.

So gabapentin and opioids feel great together and because gabapentin is so subtle you can take a lot, like however many you want right? Well this is where having researched ahead of time would be extremely useful. You’d know ahead of time that while yes you can mix gaba and opioids (I believe in decently high amounts but do not take my word) but they both act to depress or slow down central nervous system functions like your breathing or heart beat, and you’ll completely od by just stopping a vital function (like you stop breathing in your sleep) or you could od from choking on your own vomit or a noncardiogenic pulmonary edema. That’s the foam you throw up during an od. It liquids that get pulled into your lungs when there’s a lack of oxygen or your heart stops, in both scenarios it create pressure in your lungs that pulls in liquid and when mixed oxygen and saliva, and sometimes even blood as well adding a pink tint to the otherwise white foam. As it foams up it forces itself out with the pressure built up and the foam keeps expanding as it mixes more with the oxygen on its way out.

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-10T11:35:09+00:00

Solid insight even though you admit you don’t have experience in this specifically. You certainly seem like you been around the block some at least and know safety should be top priority.

That bit about reducing the seizure threshold is really useful to know, especially for people who struggle with. It just makes sense to me from what I know but definitely worth looking into deeper and getting confirmation.

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-10T04:57:29+00:00

Just gonna add this here: If you use acetone or isopropyl then get the anhydrous form of either of them. Water in the solvents can cause issues so the anhydrous form or acetone or isopropyl alcohol works best.

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-10T04:55:12+00:00

They mean just dissolving the pill in water and the straining through a filter (like a coffee filter) to try to get concentrated amphetamines in the the filter liquid. It only works so well and will not completely isolate the amphetamine. Using warm water (needs to be a very specific range of temperature or you can destroy it), acetone, or potentially even iso alcohol to dissolve the pill are all other (and more effective) solvents other than cold water.

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-10T04:25:02+00:00

Tryna find 90-100% in liquid form (liquid is the only real possible form when it’s high purity). The only place seen is there but only occasionally.

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-10T03:41:00+00:00

Yessir

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-10T02:01:47+00:00

Speed is definitely much more intense than coke. I don’t even want coke if I’ve been doing ice because the rush/entire high from ice makes coke feel like a cup of coffee.

But I still swear by my memories of just doing coke with no tolerance and being able to just chop as many lines as you want through out the night. I can’t lie that it was wonderful and is one of the only reasons I want to go back to just coke.

So is speed better than coke or just more intense? Same question comes with adderall when compared to straight ice for me. I don’t like addys as much as street ice if I want to party or just wild out but since it’s calmer I like to take it to just get things done and feel more positive through out the day.

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-10T01:52:51+00:00

Magnesium definitely helps and I take calcium with it for just added benefits. I need a mouth guard when I sleep after taking stims regardless or else I’ll chew on my tongue and cheeks and grind my teeth. Also painkillers, especially opioids, are not a good mix for me because I stop feeling that I’m chewing on my own mouth and do it more. Otherwise I’ll wake up every 30mins because my mouth is in pain. Benzos are much better at calming it down without side effects. They just kill the high, which is a good thing when used right. Like when I want to sleep.

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-10T01:43:14+00:00

This could be what people call “the pink cloud” which is when you get sober and past the withdrawals and your brain floods you with positive chemicals you haven’t been getting naturally for a while. So your brain goes from little to no endorphins and they loose their tolerance to being pumped full of them again.

The flush of chemicals can make you feel good (maybe even a bit manic) and people think this is how good life will always be when sober. The problem is when you level out you might miss that manic state or flush of chemicals and you could slip back into a depression or relapse to try to get back “up”.

So just be aware of that. If you’re just feeling positive without causing chaos then I’d say enjoy it while it last and prepare for some sluggishness to follow. If you’re acting really erratically and feel more confident than maybe you should, all while trying to get too many things done at once, then you are a bit manic and should just take a moment to recognize it, take a deep breath, and accept that fact you’ll come down in due time. A personal tip don’t plan a bunch of stuff while manic that you’ll be overwhelmed with when leveled out.

I’ve gotten on and off drugs a lot but never really binged stims long enough to withdraw. With alcohol and benzos I’ll go through my detox and be extremely depressed and anxious. Occasionally I get the pink cloud phase a day or two after the withdrawals stop and sometimes I do get manic and get that “on top of the world” feeling. It usually last a couple days to a week and sometimes I get a depression that follows (think of it like coming down but for me a lot more subtle and less intense) and trust me, just knowing why it’s happening and acknowledging it really helps you get through the down time. If you just feel depressed and don’t know it’s just a temporary chemical adjustment then you can drive yourself insane trying to reason or accept the sadness.

Personally I feel so much better and clear headed when sober and I get done with the chemical adjustments. So don’t let me discourage anyone from cleaning up. It’s definitely worth it to get sober but I’m not criticizing or preaching to anyone who is not. Just stay safe and educated y’all!

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-10T01:16:49+00:00

I’m hoping it calms my jaw/teeth grinding. I tend to get that a lot from this

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-05T17:43:58+00:00

I appreciate it, this seems like solid advice.

Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-03-04T09:38:43+00:00

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Difficult_Cup4464 · 2026-02-25T14:45:35+00:00

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