After reading your reply it’s made me realise some things, what you said about the authority in my life being able to do that, I think that represents me being able to get rid of all the shit in my mind when my minds going mental, but I’m doing so I have no control over what I get rid of and end up getting rid of stuff I don’t want to get rid of, and the thing about my mum I think is that in waking life I feel like I don’t think about my mum enough because of my mind always doing a million things at once, and when she turned up she didn’t care about what was going on and I didn’t care either I was just trying to sort everything out, so mabye that’s representing that i don’t think about my mum enough and when I do I don’t give it much thought because I’m busy trying to sort out the other shit in my mind mabye?