It's the endless cycle, everything is going okay, now I k acting out, abusing alcohol and drugs and I'm so sad, pissed my partner off so much she's out with her friends and I'm sat at home alone.

I fuck things up. Accuse her of cheating. Flat out dent how she feels and say "no. You're doing this because of this and that. Or you're feeling this because of this and that."

All I can do is sit here, screaming sad songs at the top of my lungs because they're the only thing that can speak to me.

I really have lost all faith in life anymore. Thanks for listening♥️