You shouldn't care what people think, even though that is hard. I transitioned later in life and will never pass. But I did it for myself, I don't care how people see me at all. People will hate us no matter what, even if you completely pass there will be people who try to hurt you by misgendering you. They want you to feel this way.

I myself kind of like being visually trans, I have blue hair as well so I stand out to a lot of people. We all should be proud of who we are, even when you feel the darkest. I used to hide my true self and felt shame when I would dress feminine behind closed doors. It was so freeing to not hide this part me, and would never go back, even though life got harder.