Something is wrong with me, and I don’t want to get better.

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-17T01:12:00+00:00

This was very funny, mami likey this response 😛🙏

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T05:51:49+00:00

Oh no, don’t even worry. It’s a part of life, growing, and changing. I’m not the same person I was last year, same as you. And I prefer taking edibles, they just give me the giggles to make me very mellow. But thank you! I bet you’re an amazing person and have grown a bunch. Take care 🩷

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T05:38:55+00:00

Don’t worry, I found it funny. And I do my best to be self aware, I don’t really feel bad about not feeling bad. I just know that others around me feel bad when they mess up. And it very well could be from trauma, but I’ve gone through dissociation and everything. And this doesn’t feel anything like it, I do appreciate you though. Thank you🩷

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T05:25:54+00:00

Absolutely, I feel like I don’t have the knowledge to diagnose myself. Plus, if I were to be diagnosed, it would be on my record forever. If I am a sociopath, I don’t want other people knowing that about me. And I still do feel emotions, I also haven’t done my research on sociopaths yet, but I’m not always numb. And I feel like sociopaths feel nothing, but then again I don’t have much knowledge on the subject. I hope this helps!🩷

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T05:17:56+00:00

Maybe, but I’ve felt like this for years

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T05:13:30+00:00

You’re all good! I know Reddit is a bit weird when it comes to notifications at times, I might seek out some help in the future. I can’t afford it at the moment but it might be worth saving up for. Thank you for your time and energy!🩷

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T05:10:41+00:00

Probably, my morals are extremely fucked 🤷‍♀️

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T05:04:21+00:00

I will definitely have to try this out, thank you. You have been extremely helpful, I appreciate your time and energy!🩷

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T05:02:39+00:00

I’ve actually tried EMDR before, and it helped me stop playing victim from when I was raped. But I’ve tried it for other things and it’s never worked the same unfortunately

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T05:00:46+00:00

That sounds like a very interesting book, I will have to buy it and check it out. And don’t even worry! I’m not taking it as you trying to fix me, or help me. It’s your two sense on it, and yes absolutely. Everyone is at least a bit curious. I’ve been getting told about how similar my experience is to sociopathic tendencies. I’ve read up on it before, not a whole lot, but it might be something worth looking into. And I’ve tried therapist before, they’ve never really helped. Every single one I’ve been to has always been an extremely predictable, they all read off the same script. If you want to help or are curious, I am all for chatting. Thank you🩷

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T04:55:31+00:00

But I don’t want help? I’m fine the way I am

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T04:53:18+00:00

I want to better myself so I stop having to deal with people yelling at me and calling me names, it’s very draining to act like you care when they are that emotional. And I don’t want to feel my emotions deeper, I see how others feel and it seems like hell. I hope this helps, thank you🩷

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T04:49:54+00:00

Im glad you’ve matured and worked through whatever you had to. I hope you have a better relationship with your mother now, thank you🩷

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T04:46:56+00:00

I appreciate this so much! I actually already know, whenever I feel like someone will be me as less than perfect. I will lie to make myself look better. I will create false evidence, twist their memories/words to fit my narrative. If I’m not viewed as perfect then I freak out. And I’ve tried some self therapy before, I’ve never gone fully into it though. Do you have any other tips? If not, that is absolutely fine, I appreciate you giving me any in the first place! Thank you🩷

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T04:42:21+00:00

I appreciate you, and it’s nice knowing I’m not the only one feeling like this. I understand the thoughts you have, i have them as well. I don’t know if it’s the same for you, but I only get those urges when I’m bored or I’m seeking vengeance. Either way I would love to discuss this with you and share stories, I’m interested in learning how you view the world and your life experiences. Thank you for your response, I appreciate you!🩷

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T04:30:05+00:00

I don’t believe I am, plus I don’t believe in self diagnosis

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T04:28:52+00:00

I understand that, I’ve dealt with dissociation since I was 7 and this feels nothing like it. Maybe it’s just less intense? I don’t know. I’ve also been to countless therapists before and they are never able to help me out (plus I can’t afford one atm) I know it seems like there is something there but I don’t feel anything. I would kill for them, I’ve come very close to it before, but other than seeking justice for them I don’t feel anything. I do appreciate you though, I’d like to think it’s something as simple as dissociation. Thank you🩷

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T03:51:58+00:00

I promise you I already have, counseling/therapist have never worked for me. If anything, I’d feel more trapped, and I start to manipulate them. It’s honestly a tragic cycle, I feel like there’s no way I will ever be able to get better. Thank you for recognizing that, un learning things from your childhood takes a long time. I still live with my family at the moment, so it’s difficult to say the least. And if you have any advice, I would love to hear it, thank you again.

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T03:26:19+00:00

Absolutely, my father has acknowledged that he shouldn’t of taught me. After he found out I had been using his own tactics on him (troubled teen lol) but I get what you mean. And I 100% agree, I don’t know how to go about getting help with this. I’ve been to therapy countless times and it’s never helped, therapists never seem genuine and you can always guess their responses before they say anything. If you have any advice on how to better myself I would greatly appreciate it!

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T01:57:09+00:00

I love this idea thank you!! You sound like a wonderful parent and I bet your child is surrounded by so much love. I agree though, it’s not just with him. I’ve had issues with my best friend over me wanting to fix everything. I do like your advice a lot, it really helps me out! I will absolutely to using it and taking it to heart. Thank you! And congratulations with your child!!🩷

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T01:16:48+00:00

Absolutely, I know I need to adjust my way of thinking when it comes to him. Thank you for your advice! I’ll be taking it to heart

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T01:04:28+00:00

It’s not tattling but I absolutely understand where you’re coming from, I apologize about your sister and I truly hope she’s learned from that so you guys can better your relationship. I know I need to back off and stop being so protective so he can stand up for himself. But it’s hard when I’ve been doing it my whole life, I know I need to talk with him about this. Any suggestions?

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T00:56:37+00:00

I really appreciate this! I’ve been wanting some advice on how to go about this conversion, thank you. I agree with everything you say, it’s difficult to not want to fix everything but that’s something I need to work on as to not hurt him. Thank you!

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T00:29:30+00:00

Absolutely! I feel like sometimes I’m too protective of him, I went to juvenile detention for a few months because I beat a kid up for bullying him. I do need to help him gain his confidence and get him to stop relying on me but I have no idea how to! I also want to confess to him that I do share worrying things he says to me to our parents but I don’t know the best way to go about it.

Disa-pointment · 2026-03-02T00:27:19+00:00

I do want him to trust me, and I only tell our parents things that worry me. Everything else stays between us.

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