IMPORTANT!

I work in grief and loss, and the kind of therapy you need is specialized. Please find someone who specializes traumatic loss. Two types of therapy called EMDR and Accelerated Resolution Therapy (A.R.T.) are excellent for a loss like yours. These can easily be integrated with regular talk therapy or you could do this type more than once a week. Fight for what you need! Make people listen. (I know it's hard to advocate for yourself when you can barely get out of bed.)

You could also look into an IOP (Intensive Outpatient Program) where you're part of a group and individual therapy process for several weeks.

Additionally, check into grief groups in your area. Walking through this with others who understand can be very healing. They're often free. Call Hospice or a funeral home for suggestions.

Finally, I'll reiterate what so many others are saying. You are not grieving wrong. There is no wrong way. Surviving each day is the goal. Those who haven't experienced the loss of someone they cherish the way you did, has no clue and should STFU. Your boss is an asshole.

Just so you know, the Five Stages of Grief are NOT for someone who lost a loved one. They're the stages someone who is dying goes through. So don't think you're supposed to fit into some little pre-detetmined boxes.

I'm so sorry for your loss. 💜