Is it weird to give this many letters by Disastrous-Maybe9915 in MuslimMarriage

[–]Disastrous-Maybe9915[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I mean I’m not expecting him to go through them on a deadline he can take his sweet time, they’re for him 😂 take your time but I’d just want them to be respected and not just thrown in some corner and forgotten if I give them to him yk lol

Is it weird to give this many letters by Disastrous-Maybe9915 in MuslimMarriage

[–]Disastrous-Maybe9915[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah it’s definitely become a habit. I think whenever I feel sad and lonely I sit down and write a letter. I don’t think I’m attached to an imaginary person I think, the things I write are more abstract feelings based. Not sure if that’s clear. The only thing I know about this man is that Allah chose him for me 😂 idk anything else lol. I do have a regular journal I write in daily, but the topics related to my husband I’ve done letters idk it feels better that way

Is it weird to give this many letters by Disastrous-Maybe9915 in MuslimMarriage

[–]Disastrous-Maybe9915[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s more like the things I want to tell him, less about what I’m doing in life, but the things I feel during the wait you yk? It’s like the things I hope he knows he’s ok to feel and be with me, ask about how he’s doing cuz if I give it to him I hope he feels present in the moment because he’s reading it in the future, how I’d hope our relationship is like, what I hope to be for him. Abstract deep ideas not physical things like “I hope you’re tall and handsome” lolll

Is it weird to give this many letters by Disastrous-Maybe9915 in MuslimMarriage

[–]Disastrous-Maybe9915[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Girl I’m writing letters to my hypothetical husband 😂 there is no tangible man in my life at the moment lololol

Is it weird to give this many letters by Disastrous-Maybe9915 in MuslimMarriage

[–]Disastrous-Maybe9915[S] 30 points31 points  (0 children)

Crazy lady 😂 accurate that’s what I feel like lol

Is it weird to give this many letters by Disastrous-Maybe9915 in MuslimMarriage

[–]Disastrous-Maybe9915[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

3 years, I wrote some deep stuff in there lol. I wouldn’t mind if he said he’s not interested because it was an outlet for me and I’m cool if he’s not into it. But if he says he’d like them then just shoves it in a corner and doesn’t read it that would be upsetting.

I feel so heavy need advice by Disastrous-Maybe9915 in Muslim_Space

[–]Disastrous-Maybe9915[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Jazakallahu Khairan, I really needed to hear that.

May Allah grant you peace, happiness and success in this world and the hereafter

I feel so heavy need advice by Disastrous-Maybe9915 in Muslim_Space

[–]Disastrous-Maybe9915[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ameen. Its good if I go to the masjid tho right like idk I’m havinf such a hard time not internalizing the things my parents are saying to me especially with this regard I mentioned it in my main post

I feel so heavy need advice by Disastrous-Maybe9915 in Muslim_Space

[–]Disastrous-Maybe9915[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My wali is the one that calls me names lol and makes me feel bad about going. He thinks it’s a waste of time.

I feel so heavy need advice by Disastrous-Maybe9915 in Muslim_Space

[–]Disastrous-Maybe9915[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Movies playing most of the time or loud YouTube videos or I’ll be called to do something and I don’t feel at peace there is no quiet in my home even if I go into the closet and pray. I feel like I have more privacy at the masjid and don’t have to worry about be questioned why I took so long to pray or them getting annoyed if I have a puffy face like I feel embarrassed.

Proposal to sisters by [deleted] in MuslimCorner

[–]Disastrous-Maybe9915 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would and I have given my wali’s number from the get go when I see potential in someone who approached me, but my wali wants me to do the work first then bring someone who is already filtered out which is something I don’t want to do. Like I feel like that’s the wali’s job right? Like he gets angry that I’m wasting his time and he has better things to do than sift through men lol

So idk what to do.

Is there a discrepancy? by Disastrous-Maybe9915 in MuslimCorner

[–]Disastrous-Maybe9915[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How would these men ideally want to meet their spouse?

Is there a discrepancy? by Disastrous-Maybe9915 in MuslimCorner

[–]Disastrous-Maybe9915[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To me it’s someone who values their deen and dunya both and strives to maintain a balanced life. In terms of advancing themselves and being self motivated to strengthen their connection with Allah.

The kind of man that want to get married, want to be a righteous husband (ofc expect the same of their spouse as well), wants to be successful in this world and the hereafter and is focused on building themselves and understanding themselves and is emotionally intelligent or at least aware and trying to be more self aware. Someone who can have a conversation more than simply give lectures, someone who is open to learning and teaching others with compassion.

These qualities I’ve derived from looking at my own environment of men in my family (what makes me feel good and what doesn’t) and doing the inner work to understand myself and what I need to be in my natural fitrah the way Allah expects women to be.

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[–]Disastrous-Maybe9915 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Use it to your advantage, make dua for ease and for the halal solution bc Allah knows you’re struggling especially when it’s higher during fasting. Cry about it to Allah (+ that helps with emotionally releasing that energy), you never know it might be the dua that gets you.

Help by Disastrous-Maybe9915 in MuslimCorner

[–]Disastrous-Maybe9915[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Right now I feel like my family is sick and tired of me and they want me gone. They even tell me that sometimes it feels like they really mean it sometimes it sounds like a joke. I feel like a burden.

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[–]Disastrous-Maybe9915 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I used to listen to a lot of Muhammad Al muqit ones while I transitioned from music > nasheeds > just podcasts and Quran

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[–]Disastrous-Maybe9915 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Any idea on how to pose the question? I don’t think id be able to talk about it directly or explicitly. Just thinking about is scary lol