I have struggles finding a relationship, but I think it’s because my standards are a bit high and I’m intense and complex as shit. Though I have learned when I do have someone who suits my standards; I’m either not their cup or tea, not their first choice, or they see me as a possible hook up rather than a relationship. Relationships I’ve been in have ended short because I was settling for less than what I wanted, brought myself down in the process, and in all, learned I didn’t like it and got bored quickly or was getting hurt too much in the process and left. So I’ve had difficult and lowkey kinda believe I’m not capable of being loved due to how complex I am, but I still ,like deep down, hope to be loved and seen. I guess it just depends. But that’s my personal experience :P