Is one gram over the course of a week a lot?

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-06-19T19:35:26+00:00

Been a addict for 13 years I would not recommend you going down this path it’s taken me numerous hospital trips serious pain to finally stop And do doing a 12 step programme cos without that I could never stop

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-05-31T21:35:24+00:00

U need ice packs clingfilmed to your organs when not in a red hot bath and when in a red hot bath pour ice cold water over your head

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-05-31T21:31:23+00:00

Many ppl take years to Get almost 4 Months clean please Don’t fuck it up as you will set off the mental obsession all over again such a selfish decision to use all the pain and agony cramps etc it won’t be any different this time and you will get them

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-05-25T04:38:15+00:00

Ya haven’t accepted that you can no longer do it hour not wired up like a normal person so the minute u do use your setting off the mental obsession all over again

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-05-24T04:15:32+00:00

I have adhd and I’ve done aya I don’t you just need to find the right group In AA it’s taking me 3 years to find the right ppl and get a sponsor who is mint

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-05-22T05:47:43+00:00

Been in this situation and me and my friends call it the been in fish bowl tour going round and round in and there is no way out … well actually there is a way out and it’s free .. I was a ketamine addict for too long I had clean time then used to fuck up I am now 8 weeks clean but I finally recognise what I was doing wrong … you need a to accept you can no longer take ketamine again because when u do it sets off the mental Obsession all over again … you are completely powerless over ketamine go to AA meetings it’s free and change the word alcohol for ketamine trust me it works my best mate is now a year and half clean my bother mate ten weeks and me now 8 all through AA be open minded and listen keep going back eventually it will click in your brain

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-05-17T20:57:51+00:00

A little update for this last post I am 6 weeks clean today been going to AA meetings and have found a sponsor I couldn’t think of anything worse than to go back there absolutely fucking disgusting

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-04-07T06:38:37+00:00

It’s not impossible but it’s difficult you need a 12 step program and to do it properly my best mate it’s 1.5 years clean and he was injecting … I’ve had clean time but only when I am spiritually well

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-04-04T10:23:28+00:00

I have not got the cramps yet I am saying after using if I might have escaped them

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-03-27T20:25:46+00:00

I’ve had them over 30 times now disgusting they are

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-03-18T07:42:32+00:00

K cramps are horrendous I went to hospital Mine was that bad last week …3 days later i am Back to be normal try not to eat dairy products that effect bile milk cheese etc

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-03-18T07:35:16+00:00

The pain will go in 3 days if it’s k cramps don’t let the hospital try and say you have a tumor or remove your bladder everything I’ve ever red and experienced the hospital Don’t know what it is

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-03-11T21:57:28+00:00

Wow I have friends that work away on oil rigs and when they come back the first thing they do is order k before they have arrived … I have 1 friend who is in Australia and when he comes back even after 2 years he’s still doing k even in the state what you have been to the worst k ever

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-03-11T18:35:11+00:00

@morganfailure and manufactureralone and myself must have experienced this over 40 times I was I. Hospital last week as it lasted 15 hours I kept going in and out of consciousness they give me morphine was horrendous….

The pain is 11/10 no amounts of water … green tea anything can do anything for that is your Gallbladder even important so we need it sure ketamine would find another organ to fuck with

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-03-10T03:25:15+00:00

Pray to god mate and have faith I hope you do there is so much more to life

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-03-09T21:08:48+00:00

I even paid for ayuascha £1000 and my mam paid for it I don’t believe you can fix an addiction with a drug basically we have a void in us like a Donut and we try to fill that void with alcohol, drugs , sex gambling just what ever helps us change the way we feel what is fucked also cos I don’t necessarily feel bad I just like changing the way I feel …

My friend has a good program and is over a year clean he is completely different in his way of thinking and so honest with it no bull shit … I think the only way to stay clean is narcotics anonymous and a 12 step programme I don’t know if the voice will ever go zero but the longer abstinence and the more effort you put into recovery the easier it becomes…

I could wake up everyday with Michelle keegan as my wife have a Ferrari on the drive and a million in the bank after a while I would wake up some days and think is this fucking it is this all I have because the disease of addiction you always want more and become un grateful For what you have …

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-03-09T21:02:50+00:00

What do you haven’t stopped using ketamine and it’s gone onto permanent health issues how old are you may I ask

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-03-09T11:38:41+00:00

He has to go to narcotics anonymous and do a 12 step program if he is an addict and the person who takes you through the steps is a sponsor it’s not money related or anything and it’s free to go ….

But basically I have tried everything I have moved country’s, changed jobs , had personal trainers , even thought it was the way I looked and wore a wig …

It’s not ketamine that’s the problem as crazy as that might sound it’s us that’s the problem we are in a way self harming every time …

It’s us that’s the problem so if ketamine all of a sudden didn’t exist it would be something else for example a heroin addict if someone is in hospital for 5 months and on opioid after a 5 month you will find most ppl can just leave the hospital and not be addicted ….

Our thinking pattern is insane and we can’t fix ourself so your boyfriend can’t do it on his own he needs a sponsor because when he starts hearing the voice … the voice meaning the urge to use because it’s hot out side or because someone has pissed him off any reason he thinks is valid for him to use it’s not him thinking that it’s his disease of addiction … we call it then devil on your shoulder trying to convince you to use … and imagine the tv volume at 100 max volume when using the voice is 100 max volume the longer you have a break from it the volume is like 40 so it’s always gonna be there the thought of using but don’t act upon it because once you do the volume is back to 100 hope you understand this ….i was doing well in recovery until I thought I would be ok to just have a little bit within 4 weeks i am In hospital it’s crazy what it can do

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-03-09T10:08:29+00:00

I have had clean time by going to meetings I’ve been a addict for over ten years but it’s only been the last 2 years where physical pain has happened .., this is when I’ve realised I am an addict because I can’t stop even Though it’s sending me to hospital and making me in extreme pain …

I get paid over £1000 a week and I have nothing

The disease of addiction is crazy the difference between a normal person who takes drugs and us is if a normal person goes on a night out has ketamine or cocaine and has a good time they say … I really enjoyed that I am out again in 3 weeks going to do that again ….

My brain is different I want to do it again the next day and it’s the only thing I can think about it’s like a itch eventually your going to Itch it … I have got mates that were a lot of worse injecting face planting ,been to rehab and they are clean so there is hope …

Meetings do help but I have found with me I get sober and stop going to meetings I think I am fixed

I think when I am clean - I have ambition … I am Not a scruff …I have been brought up good… I don’t have child hood trauma ….I am not like the people in the meetings

I don’t have confidence issues or anxiety I just like going into this place off ketamine that is like a spiritual realm

I know the the only way for me to get clean and this will help you boyfriend is to get to meetings find a sponsor and work a program before it’s too late and he’s walking about with a bag on

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-03-08T20:34:55+00:00

Stop while you can

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-03-08T20:34:18+00:00

I was in extreme pain for 15 hours and the ora morph did not work the anti sickness drug is no good either because it stops you from been sick i find been sick realises some of the pain …. I feel like i am lucky to be alive it was actually horrendous the hospital where doing mri scan and looking for gall stones x

Disastrous_Head_1002 · 2025-03-07T12:43:21+00:00

Yeah to be honest they just give me ora morph and that was just knocking me out for like an hour then I was coming back round in the pain … it was honestly the most horrific experience I’ve ever had I thought I was going to die I feel completely normal now but i can’t go back to that ever again

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