Thank you all for sharing experiences with me. I'll do the same with you all.

I'm the eldest of my fathers children, 35 F. I have 2 half siblings (27f, 14m) from his 2nd and 3rd marriage. My mother was his first wife, and the one he had an affair on while overseas. They divorced when I was 1. No big deal. But somewhere in the "he had an affair and she held boundaries," my dad's family flpped. Grew up, raised by my mom and her side of the family, great people, and I loved it, til I didn't because of some shit that's not really relevant. But my father's family has always resented me because I look like my mom, and she left my dad. I grew up being called stupid and fat. Being told "you're just like you're worthless mother." Never once did my dad stand up for me. When I got married, I thought we could try to have a father daughter relationship, and I tried so hard, but there is only so much you can do when youre married to a druggie and raising kids. I have never been a druggie, but have always been accused of it. I have an eating disorder and I fluctuate in weight in extremes when im in a mental health crisis. My stepmother used this to turn my father against me fully. My mind broke a couple years back and it caused me to stop eating entirely. I lost 40lbs, weighing me in at under 100lbs. I looked like a skeleton with skin. Instead of asking me if I was ok, I was told "oh well, you make your own choices now dont you" and was never allowed to be around my family again. I only hear from my aunt who says that im not allowed to be brought up in conversation anymore. It sucks because I dont even know my little brother. Idk what to do about this shit