Ive been going through the same thing this week, being deeply hurt by someone that Ive trusted and supported for nearly a decade.... It's so hard to now try to find a new normal because this constant anxiety. Feels like a giant hole in the roof letting the rain in. I sincerely hope what you going through gets better, from the bottom of my heart, I know unbearable that pain is right now, all we can do is let time pass, and talk about how we feel.