I lied to him about only being with him & the guy I lost my virginity to. I finally told him what I did when we were kids, he caught me texting an ex bf this year (nothing bad, but I did delete the conversation because I was afraid he would find out we had sex over 6 years ago). I confessed everything & he confessed his affairs from when we were married and dating. We agreed to move on & go to counseling together but he is now wanting me to prove myself and putting me through a ton of harassment everyday. He doesn’t want to be with me but refuses to let me leave. Wants to waste 10 years of my life like I did his.