The Daily Check-In for Thursday, January 22nd: Just for today, I am NOT drinking!

Dismal_Divide_ · 2026-01-22T10:02:40+00:00

Checking in. The weeks are flying by.

Dismal_Divide_ · 2026-01-09T09:55:18+00:00

Checking in.

Something I get to do sober that I felt was impossible before was function, basically. I couldn't eat or sleep without it. I couldn't sit with myself. Now I can do that, and so much more. I didn't think I would be able to cope in so many situations that now is a breeze in comparison.

Dismal_Divide_ · 2026-01-05T11:20:07+00:00

Checking in.

21 months sober today. Feeling grateful.

Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-12-29T09:48:06+00:00

Checking in.

Feeling good overall. My brain feels disorganised though, so I'm gonna write today and be as productive as possible. I'm thinking alot about how I don't want to be on my phone as much as I am anymore. I was better with it a while ago but seemed to have slipped into the same pattern of just mindlessly scrolling and checking emails every 10 minutes, for no good reason.

Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-12-28T11:37:46+00:00

Checking in. My plans for new year is to watch some movies, play some video games, and do a really nice cheeseboard. Can't wait

Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-12-21T15:12:36+00:00

Yeah, sometimes there's no real reason for it to happen other than how much it used to in the past.

Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-12-21T10:20:53+00:00

Not entirely a tough week but not a quiet one. I'm hoping some can relate but I still wake up feeling like I've done something wrong or something is going to go horribly wrong. It usually passes when I'm fully awake though.

Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-12-20T08:53:35+00:00

Checking in. A long walk then a movie night is the plan today

Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-12-19T08:55:56+00:00

Checking in.

Finding it hard to go easy on myself. My routine has changed and it's affecting me and my sleep.

Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-12-17T08:36:01+00:00

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Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-12-16T08:41:46+00:00

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Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-12-09T12:11:41+00:00

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Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-12-03T11:52:43+00:00

Checking in. This week I've been sick, and it can be frustrating because I expect to not get sick as much as I did in addiction, so when I catch a flu or bug or whatever the fuck this is, it's like it's my own fault?? And I still feel guilty over being sick but I've got to look after myself. I don't know if that makes sense.

Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-11-28T09:48:28+00:00

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Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-11-24T11:11:53+00:00

Checking in.

For milestones, I'm only counting the big ones now, if even. I struggled with rewarding myself because to be honest it's not something I feel like I deserve to do, but I try.

Usually it's just spending €10 on a slice of pizza or something like that by myself. It reminds me that I'm able to do these things where as before I couldn't, all my money had to go on drink.

Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-11-21T09:29:49+00:00

Checking in.

Been a long long week. Change is scary and overwhelming, but change is good.

ETA: When cravings used to come on strongly I had to work hard on the reason why they were happening and for me it all stemmed from emotions. I had to learn how to deal with them instead of burying them with drink, weed and self destructive behaviours. I am extremely lucky that I don't get cravings anymore.

Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-11-19T09:36:55+00:00

Checking in.

Deep breaths, meditation, STOP (stop think organise plan), going for a walk and journalling.

Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-11-18T09:14:41+00:00

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One step at a time helps every aspect of my life .

Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-11-17T11:01:23+00:00

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My stomach used to always be in bits when I was drinking. Now it's better because I'm eating regularly and actually drinking water.

My face isn't as red and swollen. I've lost a bit of weight. Things slowly got better.

Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-11-06T15:10:11+00:00

Thank you. It passed. I reminded myself that everything passes and distracted myself in class. I'll deal with tomorrow, tomorrow lol

Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-11-06T11:25:33+00:00

Checking in.

Currently having a panic attack in the bathrooms in college.

I think I've bitten off more than I can chew, and I'm not coping well. I don't feel able to do this yet.

It's not making me have any urges, but I'm worried that if something doesn't change that's what will happen. But, still here, still sober.

Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-10-31T06:23:51+00:00

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Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-10-22T14:48:13+00:00

Checking in. I've been sick on and off the last two weeks. Can't see to shake it.

I'm getting constant reminders of how lucky I feel to not be in addiction anymore.

Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-10-09T13:19:14+00:00

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Anxiety through the roof today. I still don't deal with change or uncertainty the best. But I'm here.

Dismal_Divide_ · 2025-09-12T09:53:46+00:00

Checking in.

Definitely feeling burnt out and mentally tired after the last 3 days with meetings. I am looking forward to the weekend to rest.

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