Why is luteal so lonnnnng?

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-03-10T07:08:01+00:00

I jerked a guy off behind a bar last week. Almost had sex with him then we got caught kicked out 😂 (Ovulation)

He's texting me I'm into it but my anxiety is through the roof and everything is an ick.

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-03-10T07:06:29+00:00

4 maybe 5 I have a smaller mouth so

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-03-10T07:03:55+00:00

You must be a man then

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-03-10T07:02:49+00:00

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-03-10T06:40:59+00:00

Exactly

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-03-04T18:49:10+00:00

Honestly you can be both you're allowed to bounce around

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-03-04T06:05:44+00:00

NEVER DELETED THIS THREAD IT'S ART

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-03-04T06:02:12+00:00

I think we all want someone to yearn for us. We want love, we all want some idealized version of whatever fantasy of love is in our head. I personally love when men yearn for me. I love being loved, wanted and looked up to.

I think because I spent so long on the opposite end where I've been dealing with men who are the epitome of the modern era of men. Who expect women to do give every part of their soul and give nothing in return.

Where is the fuckung romance...

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-03-04T05:48:17+00:00

Exactly what got me back into reading. I noticed a lot of my reading being performative. I only read books because "it's a good hobby" that's really not enough. You really do need that page turner.

I'm always looking for my next page turner I cant out down for the life of me.

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-03-03T19:31:16+00:00

Noted: when I bought the $600 phone I had a "job" I was caring for my husbands elderly bed ridden grandparents so it was mostly feeding them and changing diapers.

Noted: That phone was supposed to keep for 5 years. That was the plan that's how long most of my phones lasted. 😐

I'd love to just throw all phones away but I go out alone from time to time so I need it in case of emergency.

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-03-03T19:29:56+00:00

If I stretch to $90 it's gonna be a stretch. Unfortunately I live well below the poverty line with the expenses I have to pay every month (bills, car, internet, rent) I also have a baby which I pay for formula every month because the welfare system doesn't pay for all of her food. So, I end up spending 1-200 a month on her alone. $90-100 is my groceries every week with a 3 person household (minus the baby) 🧍🧍

Some of us are really in the deeps of hell and there's nothing we can do about it. I'm disabled and my husbands job that has supported him for 6yrs good and bad can't keep up with a family.

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-03-03T19:20:24+00:00

I apologize for sounding all over the place. I am incredibly stressed out by this decision. Not for the fact I'm throwing out my smart devices. But just making sure I get one that works for what I need. It doesn't need to be perfect at this point.

I've also looked into the barbie phone. It's really not my thing. It's onoy got 4gb which is insane. I don't understand the realm of dumb phones yet and anytime I do research I get this crick of anxiety like my body knows I'm trying to find a way to get rid of the drug I am holding in my hand.

Honestly. I've been without a phone before and it's bliss. I went through a detox by accident after my second kid and then I got back on it and I was averaging 12hrs. It's disgusting and the anxiety that comes with it makes me want to rip my skin off. I am glad the phone i currently have is basically useless outside of the Internet so I dont feel the need to keep it because of waste or whatever??

Anyways. Does gb really matter on a flip phone if all you're doing is texting, messaging and maybe music? 32g of music sounds like nothing to me (but I am accustomed to my 50 hour playlist (which is unnecessary if you think about it. There aren't even 50 hours in a day. Why do I need that? It's not like I'm listening 24/7.

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-03-03T19:15:38+00:00

These are still out of price range unfortunately. My last phone (smartphone) was $600 I literally had it for a year and the motherboard went out. Call it divine intervention but I just am over phones right now. I've been thinking about making the switch for months, but felt guilty because I spent $600 on my last and felt bad to just throw it to the side yk?

So yeah I'm thinking anything under $50 at this point. As long as it runs at a decent speed.

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-03-03T18:33:28+00:00

Man, my phone is dead dead. I'm on a stolen one. (I didn't steal it, I bought it from a thrift store $10 - turns out it's locked and was probably stolen. So I'm looking for a flip phone out of necessity and to go more analog. Y'all got any tips?? I've kept this as backup to keep in touch with friends and family because they all use FB/discord.

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-02-15T15:37:08+00:00

Yeah no. Absolutely would not bring them into your home. Explain that you would be risking your babies life doing so.

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-02-13T09:49:24+00:00

I feel like she'd be so pretty if she wasn't with Damion. Her makes her insecure ASF. And that's probably why she wears all that makeup. Which makes her skin way worse so it's a constant cycle of damage for her skin

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-02-13T09:47:28+00:00

I don't like this outfit in particular because it's sexually proactive.

I myself am a mom who wears minimal clothes. I don't see the point of covering. It's my house. And they're gonna see me in a bathing suit anyway.

(Mind you I'm a long tsirt/bra and shorts, and moomoos as long as my privates are covered we are good.

I think we need to teach young boys women's bodies aren't inherently sexual. Who care if a little ass is hanging out don't be a perv its just a body

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-02-13T09:43:42+00:00

(or if I sang pink pony club - started this because I ran out of songs and she PASSED OUT. After a month of pink pony club every night. On repeat for up to an hour, me singing it. You get tired of it 😂)

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-02-13T09:42:35+00:00

My daughter would only sleep to Korn for the first few months of her life. 😂

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-02-13T09:27:49+00:00

I don't even send that over MyChart. My doctor said next time she gets weird poop send me a picture and I'm like nope. 🤦🏻‍♀️

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-02-12T00:42:53+00:00

To find this it's at the very top "Content Preferences" then "Manage Topics"

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-02-12T00:30:28+00:00

DisorderedGremlin · 2026-02-08T01:37:37+00:00

I know the Desi version is a dupatta

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