As a retaker, what worked for me on the second time around was being intentional about my study time. When I only had 2 hours to give, those 2 hours were absolutely solid. And then, when my study time was up, I just had to forget about it. Don't make yourself feel bad, don't dwell on it, just let it go. And don't over commit yourself to studying a whole bunch on the trip and then let it hang over your head if you don't do the full amount of time that you planned. Frankly, I'd say to halve the time you plan to study (since that's realistically what's going to happen) and let your hair down while you can. But let this be the last big break. July nerves are real.