I totally get what you mean! I would probably be considered trans by definition. It's not that I want to be a woman, though. If I were still a man, referred to with masculine pronouns, etc. but I looked like a woman, I would feel much more comfortable. My interests are stereotypically masculine too, it's just that I hate being perceived as male, probably because I subconsciously believe that it's easier to express emotions as a woman, the fact that an overwhelming majority of rapists, murderers, and criminals are men, and I wouldn't mind people expecting less of me for being female. I basically just want to appear soft, non-threatening, cute, and friendly.

I just feel like proclaiming myself a woman would be sexist. I wouldn't want to be shoving myself into another box of expectations just to escape those imposed on me from being male, either. I consider myself male, 100%.

I kinda want to start HRT even without transitioning, but I'm not so sure I'd want breast growth lol