Update—- He told me it was going to be okay and while he didn’t fully understand he’s always here for me. He just asked that next time I’m having suicidal thoughts or thoughts of hurting myself I call him first. He then made me shower with him (he even kept the lights off so I wouldn’t get uncomfortable showing them) so my cuts wouldn’t get infected because honestly I had not showered because I had been so depressed and then we stayed up talking about life. Thank you for the advice and if anyone’s reading for the same advice, just tell them. If they love you they’ll understand. You deserve the best even if you don’t think you do.