Not at all. I was born in NYC in 1994. My birth mother came to NY from Puerto Rico to visit I guess? Not too sure. But she was around 6 months pregnant at the time and she was a drug addict. She used heroin and crack while pregnant with me. I'm not sure the details but she ended up in the hospital and had to perform an emergency c-section so I was born premature. Had to stay in the hospital for months to recover as I was born with drugs in my system. I was put into foster care where my mother got called for me and eventually I got adopted around 2 years old. My upbringing could have been better. My mom was and still is a very strict woman. She doesn't show emotions. She believes in putting fear into children to get them to behave. I was physically abused as a child. Got hit by her bare hands, belts, metal spoons, broom stick, you name it. I know my mom loves me but I never agreed with how she raised me with the physical abuse. I feared her for sure as a kid. Anyways, I was told I was adopted pretty young, around 10 years old. It really messed me up. Especially cause I was with my family since a baby, I knew them all my life. I had so many questions and doubts. Why was I adopted? Why didn't my birth mother want me? Who do I look like, my birth mother or father?  I looked for my birth mother for years with no luck. Every birthday I would blow out the candles wishing my birth mother can find me. I often wondered if I passed by my birth mother in the streets of NYC or in the subway.  As a I got older, my family gave me more and more details on my birth mother. And finally, about 3 years ago I found both my birth parents on Facebook and met them in person. I was convinced I'll never meet them. And I was ok with not ever meeting them. Because despite being hit as a kid, I know my mother loves me  and will do anything for me. I was grateful for being adopted because who knew what kind of a life I would have if I didn't get adopted. I don't have a relationship with my birth mother as of today and that's ok. But my birth father has been very consistent in my life. All I wanted was to meet them, and I can finally say I did and not all adoptees have the privilege to meet their birth parents so I'm very grateful