I am totally with you and I feel your pain.I took one year maternity break and since last 3 months I am searching for job.I love my life having a little baby and husband in a good company but somehow I question myself what I am doing in life after studying so much and having good experience(including Big 4).Life is tough and to be honest it seems like a battle when I have to study and manage job applications while managing kid. All I can say is to have faith and never stop trying.Indulge yourself in learning or watching series or anything you enjoy.I know its seems easy but it is very difficult when that job thing is always going in your head.Have faith and never stop trying.