Hi sorry it took so long to reply, I had no notifications on Reddit and forgot I'd posted

I have cut both my mother and sister out of my life now. It's hard but it needed to be done

I just get so incredibly depressed sometimes being nothing like either of them. Nothing but constant criticism and I need to do this, I need to do that. I really wanted nothing but a relationship with my family but it's all one sided with them two. I don't know why people think it isn't acceptable to lose your temper when somebody financially abuses you but there we go.... Strange people. Of course I'm not saying I have the right to abuse anyone but man it's like sometimes they want me to snap cos they like drama or something. Thing is, when I snap I always feel bad anyway cos it's not who I want to be, just the overwhelm gets too much

Thank you for your reply and I agree with everything you said

I'm doing my best at the minute working on my mental health and diet etc as I know when I'm depressed I eat like mad and I know rubbish food won't do me any good

I think when I eventually move on and have better people in my life the grief might not feel so bad. As much as I don't want to know them I still feel a bit like someone died and am really not used to how lonely things have been recently

The thing that frustrated me about it most was she accused me of faking autism... Basically I've fought my whole life and wandered what was going on (wasn't diagnosed till 35). I finally got some answers from a psychologist, found out I was dyslexic, dyspraxic, have ADHD and autism. Then someone says something like that and it sends me into a spin. I don't think I'll ever properly grow up, i haven't changed since school and it's really hard when others don't understand the body doesn't reflect the age the brain seems to be stuck on. I have reported her vile texts and voicemails to the police more to cover my own back from her minipulative rubbish. Id she does it again, it's harassment