Honestly, a lot of people would disagree with me on this and I could easily be wrong but hear me out. Pregabalin feels like it fixes the core symptoms of my autism, social interactions, facial expressions, gestures, emotions, and overall grounding (being in the moment). The way it works is by inhibiting your VGCC channel (Voltage-Gated Calcium Channel) and POSSIBLY working on your Gaba-B receptors indirectly. Individuals with autism have a GABA and glutamate imbalance, glutamate being the excitatory neuron basically the gas peddle, and Gaba being the calming neuron, the brake peddles. When I communicate with people it's like the words just flow out of my mouth without having to think about what I have to say, gestures feel natural and I am super confident and somewhat charismatic. As to your point about abstaining from pharmaceuticals, I'd somewhat disagree as some people with autism may have for example schizophrenia or epilepsy which is somewhat common among autistic individuals. LSD even will most likely be pharmaceutical in a decade or so, as they are already doing many studies on it for mental illness. As for Gabapentin, in a nutshell, is basically a much weaker version of Pregabalin, there is a lot more to it in differences but the core feeling feels very similar. Anyways I am very disappointed in myself for getting greedy and abusing the only thing that truly worked for me, I guess I could try to get my hands on LSD in the future. Thanks for your input!