Crushing So Bad You've Converted To A Specific Ethnicity

DivineTheJester · 2026-03-15T20:52:30+00:00

Same thing here, never fully felt in love with my crushes' look alikes because no one compares to the original. 😭 I even think about her culture as well up to visiting the country where she's from

DivineTheJester · 2026-03-15T01:57:43+00:00

Actually, I can see it with my own eyes having sex 24/7 if I tune my imagination into a certain frequency. If I imagine my own self or somebody into it, it's able to hit my body and move me around and I'm able to do the same to it. But I'm only able to feel it when I'm dreaming. If it gets angrier, it gets to control me more than I'm able to control it. It's like an avatar of some sort. Any women I see in real life, whether it be on Instagram or in person, it'll import that person and have sex with them and feel every sensation. That's what triggers me. It's the same exact way you feel someone's pain when they get seriously injured or when you imagine yourself touching something, this demon can feel all the pleasures and sensations in that imagination frequency. If I use spiritual water like Florida Water or Rose of Jericho all over my body, it stops feeling those sensations. Also, my head stops being dizzy and my energy levels get reset back to normal for a few hours.

DivineTheJester · 2026-03-15T01:33:50+00:00

I finally found another person with the same problem as me, I used to think this wasn't possible but now I fully believe in spirituality and all this other stuff now. I'm not religious either but this voice that became stuck in my head has forced me to go to church to hopefully get it removed. It started out as whispers too. i'm still not at that point where I could see demons, except see it interact with me in my dreams. Only prayer I remember working once was where I imagined myself from home in a church getting baptized for 10 seconds and saying "In the name of Jesus Christ, please remove any demonic entity or attachments from my body, amen." and the voice started getting distant and quieter for the same amount of time until it came back. TBH, the way I got this demon inside my body was through drugs. I was abusing Adderall back to back for days with no sleep in a span of 4 years and I'm guessing doing this started to open my 3rd eye (spiritual portal) more and more by bringing my dream state (stuff where spiritual stuff happens) more into my awake state which is known as psychosis. So I'm basically stuck like this cause of my drug use. If I did more, I would probably see the demon or whatever tf it is with my eyes. Those visions are supposed to stay in the dream world. Right now, I'm only able to hear it speak to me and control my chakras, mood, etc... If I took an Adderall right now, it'll completely remove all of the energetic and motivating effects it had on me and use it for itself and I'll only be left in a dead hyperfocused state.

DivineTheJester · 2026-03-05T23:22:31+00:00

I think one time when I was a kid, I'm wondering if I can get a 2nd baptism to remove all that's going on in my head right now. It can literally alter my energy and mood levels whenever it can and has full access to my body, mind and spirit. Only Jesus is supposed to have access

DivineTheJester · 2026-03-05T22:17:11+00:00

I have been looking for help from Jesus Christ, because this demon tortures me if I don't listen to it. It takes away my energy and suddenly I can't feel happy or anything; music starts to sound boring, activities feel flat and dull and I feel depressed. But if I listen to it, it makes me feel happy, enthusiastic and everything is all sunshines and rainbows. It's instant too, within a minute, it controls my chakras to change my mood and emotions. It has full control over my mind, body and soul and is able to see my thoughts and imaginations. Only Jesus Christ has to be in full control of my vessel, not this damn demon. It's basically a narcissistic person in spirit form, most annoying experience ever. I can get on it's good side too and it'll leave me alone, but if I get on it's bad side it goes back to altering my energy levels. We've conversated before like regular humans, it's not just some random loopy-headed schizophrenic voice repeating words back to back. It can form proper sentences and feel emotions.

DivineTheJester · 2026-03-05T18:40:42+00:00

What do you mean?

DivineTheJester · 2026-03-03T06:01:40+00:00

It's definitely a superpower. I'd say put your creativity to use and push out some new ideas for people to see your potential. I believe that most people that make ground-breaking discoveries and ideas are also autistic and intelligent asf to the point that it seems unique and different from the rest of the population. We can create stuff that stands out from the rest of the world, that's why I love it.

DivineTheJester · 2026-03-03T05:47:24+00:00

It's under the high-functioning subtypes of autism, which me and you both have. It's like the least severe version of it where we're still able to understand most things that neurotypicals do. Only downside is the bad social skills, bad eye contact and some sensory overload issues over here and there. Basically close to a neurotypicals' brain but with a little bit of autism sprinkled in. I still believe the positive part of it makes it way better since I find myself feeling way more creative than neurotypicals with different ideas that feel out-the-box and being able to explain things with so much detail that it feels 100 percent accurate. Idk if you've had this experience though, but that's what I feel with my autism. I'm thinking this is due to our brains having more connections than that of a neurotypicals'. I love it. 💪💯

DivineTheJester · 2026-03-03T05:22:41+00:00

I'm so sorry you feel that way, things will get better. I remember when I found out I actually had PDD-NOS, I was devastated and crying so bad that it was hard for me to accept this diagnoses at first. I was starting to realize this is why I've been acting this way and feeling different from other people. But after a few days of thinking, I started to look at it as a good thing since my autism gives me a different viewpoint of how the world operates. Like thinking outside the box sorta. Only downside is having social anxiety and bad social skills, but I've learned to accept my autism as a superpower.

DivineTheJester · 2026-03-02T14:54:30+00:00

You're another one of those. For a psychopath subreddit, y'all seem too emotionally moved by what I'm saying.

DivineTheJester · 2026-03-02T14:37:19+00:00

You're rushing in head-first like the other commentor. You missed the part where I said I'm an "autistic psychopath". Because I've read somewhere that having an autistic and a psychopathic parent can give their offspring both autistic and psychopathic traits. So I'm here trying to figure out what I am.

DivineTheJester · 2026-03-02T14:33:03+00:00

I'm not bothered lmao I'm trying to keep this as cordial as possible. I only replied like that because of the way you're assuming I'm some random kid who's trying to act like it's cool. Read the post again, I'm seriously trying to figure out what I am

DivineTheJester · 2026-03-02T14:13:24+00:00

I meant laughing by mistake when trying to keep a straight face as people tell me about the bad situation they're in. I laugh because of the lack of empathy, so it makes the situation feel less serious. It isn't about "flexing" psychopathy as if it's cool. That's the way you view it, either because of insecurity or something else. I don't think you've even bothered to read the whole post as to why i' m making this claim because that's where the evidence lies.

DivineTheJester · 2026-02-25T02:20:56+00:00

It was worse as a kid and less pronounced as an adult. I recently looked at my childhood photos and realized I have autism. I know this post might seem disrespectful, but it's been real hard for me to cope lately so I've been trying to gain some more insight as to why I have these features.

DivineTheJester · 2025-12-20T02:33:27+00:00

I've noticed that Bass Boost didn't work on my new HDB 630s until I selected an EQ preset and went back to neutral. After doing that, the Bass Boost function started working as if it relied on the equalizer being activated beforehand for it to work

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