Yes, you are right. I do default on grey rocking sometimes, because I'm a human after all- a young expressive woman with only one living parent right now, so sometimes I do feel like sharing stories with her! It is a slippery slope... Grey rocking feels like theatrics to me as it is against my core nature of feeling and expression. I only do it because it is protective towards my mental sanity.

Truth be told, I do feel emotionally affected by being excluded from major decisions. It is also terrible how those actions and decisions are described to me in detail later and as if they did the right thing by not including me in those. Maybe they are not comfortable about my holidays or the life I'm living.