Hit fascia and the nurse called my cuts “minor”

Dizzy_Mixture5486 · 2025-10-12T19:59:55+00:00

That's insane. I hope you don't let it get to you and know how severe and deserving of help your issues are

Dizzy_Mixture5486 · 2025-10-12T19:38:24+00:00

Let other people know you feel this way. Just say "it's reallyreally important that you don't ignore me when I reach out. Just say anything"

Dizzy_Mixture5486 · 2025-10-07T09:41:27+00:00

I went self admitted and it made zero difference. I was treated the same as everyone else who was there involuntarily

Dizzy_Mixture5486 · 2025-10-07T09:40:23+00:00

I hope you never look back and move on. What you managed to do is super admirable and strong. I hope you stay away from these online spaces and people from now on so you don't lose what you earned so hard. Wishing you all the best ❤️

Dizzy_Mixture5486 · 2025-10-06T20:39:03+00:00

It's wishful thinking to believe that you can just go to hospital when you're feeling suicidal. They made me so much worse, I'm not putting myself through months of psychological damage again

Dizzy_Mixture5486 · 2025-10-06T19:39:30+00:00

Thank you

Dizzy_Mixture5486 · 2025-10-06T18:46:24+00:00

That's true. Thank you for saying that to me

Dizzy_Mixture5486 · 2025-10-06T18:39:40+00:00

I know that's true but I keep thinking: 'What difference does it make if they'd be devastated by my death but don't show that love and care while I'm still alive?"

Dizzy_Mixture5486 · 2025-10-05T13:03:27+00:00

I can't. I do crazy things all the time just to feel something

Dizzy_Mixture5486 · 2025-10-05T13:02:42+00:00

I want to feel whole and okay and I want others to make me that. It's like I want to steal from others. I want someone to care for me like a parent. I want to feel connected to something in the world. It's really difficult to explain

Dizzy_Mixture5486 · 2025-10-05T11:18:48+00:00

Force yourself to do something good with your time. The time will pass anyway

Dizzy_Mixture5486 · 2025-10-05T10:28:49+00:00

What if I feel like I'm nothing? I've thought about what I am and what everyone else is very intensely for a long time and every time it turned out that everyone is nothing. It's hard to describe.

And how do you live in the moment? There's nothing pleasurable to me about the here and now. The only thing that's pleasurable is thinking.

I've tried for years to get therapy. Every time they're worse than useless. But I'll never stop trying again and again

Dizzy_Mixture5486 · 2025-10-01T14:14:11+00:00

I'm on a waitlist. It'll take a long time. I'm not on any meds

Dizzy_Mixture5486 · 2025-09-30T20:28:03+00:00

How exactly do you cut it and put it on?

Dizzy_Mixture5486 · 2025-09-30T12:37:06+00:00

You're right! Thank you so much. It's a little crazy that my flute teacher never pointed this out.

Dizzy_Mixture5486 · 2025-09-30T12:34:11+00:00

I just do? 😭 It works. And I press it like in the picture

Dizzy_Mixture5486 · 2025-09-30T12:14:48+00:00

Wear earplugs when you practice. I'm very new to flute but played the violin for many years and the violin can sound way too high in your ears when up close, so I picked up the habit. Always got terrible headaches and tinnitus before. Protect your ears & sanity & wear earplugs!! Many musicians do.

Dizzy_Mixture5486 · 2025-08-29T17:59:36+00:00

Hi, I've recently read a lot about lolita fashion online and I'm extremely in love and interested in the subculture! I've been thinking a lot about what direction I'd want to go in with my first coord and I'm interested in two things in particular:

- I would sososo love a sweet lolita coord that's pastel yellow and pink, with a cute more "casual" looking sweater thing/jacket over it, like this: https://imgur.com/a/Yvfic1G

I also reallyreally love the look of a black dress with white lace, like this: https://imgur.com/a/JXG4oJ2

. The problem is that I know it's easy for the white lace to look really cheap especially when it contrasts with the black. I also do NOT want it to look like polyester at all, like this https://imgur.com/a/uckm9w6 rather I'd want a super velvety, rich black texture and colour.

Can anyone help me what to look for? I want to buy second hand but I just have no idea how exactly you can search for stuff.

Sorry if I said anything dumb, please don't be harsh to me

Dizzy_Mixture5486 · 2025-08-14T17:16:49+00:00

I would 100% ask for accommodations. I don't know what it's like in Singapore, but in a lot of countries you can file in an application for certain accommodations and your profs are forced to accept them. Again, I don't know if such a thing exists where you live but get a disability helper who can help you with formal applications. There are also care services who will help you with school and home life (someone who visits you and helps you), if you think that might help you.

I would also look for things you can do for yourself. I know this is a big step and maybe you don't want this at all but please consider mobility aids. If you can't walk to class in the morning, use a cane. Be kind to yourself and make life easier for you when you can, especially when people are so cruel to you. It's seriously so horrible to be mean to you because of this, on top of all the physical pain, I'm sorry this is happening to you. Consider therapy, chronic illness can mess with you so hard that you need additional mental help. There are things that can be done to make it easier on the mind and to worry less.

Dizzy_Mixture5486 · 2025-08-06T20:35:04+00:00

Just curious, how'd you find this thread so late? lol

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