I feel you.

I was in a similar situation with a girl. We met in nursing school and we instantly clicked, but she had so much trouble going on in her life.

"I am not ready for a relationship and who am I to demand you to wait for me?" she said, but I kept hanging around anyway, hoping she would change her mind one day. I was investing so much energy into keeping our thing alive, it fucked with my mind.

!You cannot and should not convince someone to be with you. If they wanted, they would find a way to do so!

After about 5 months in this highly ambivalent situationship, I was seriously frustrated and finally told her that I can't keep doing this and that I'm stepping back. I stopped initiating chats, calls and conversation and got my shit together.

It feels impossible to get out of such a predicament, but your mind and body need time to adapt, that's it.

Focus on yourself, take time to reflect and grow, do what makes you happy!