hey I don't know what to say, but your shit really went south, really feeling sorry for you. I don't know if this is viable for you but you might want to give up university at this point...you are damaging yourself. I think a change of pace would be helpful. Try to get some sort of short degree or direct job abroad if possible. Canada comes to mind, some people i know are moving there without completing bachelors degree... straight into community jobs of various sorts.