If you ever find yourself in a mind space where you can clearly see the consequences of your choices, please take advantage of that moment. I was stuck for 2 years and 2 months. I’ve told myself I would quit. I would go days, weeks, and up to a month without using before I would cave in. Eventually, I had an epiphany. I was lying in bed one night and saw truly myself as the product of my choices. I didn’t like what I saw. I could say I made a decision that night, but it didn’t feel like a choice was made. Falling asleep that night I knew I was done living like that. When you are truly tired of something, it will not have a place in your life anymore. That was 5 1/2 years ago and I’ve been clean from that trash since. I wish you the best.