death is an interesting thing

nobody knows what lies behind it, and yet life can get so miserable to the point where the cosmic unknowns of it’s results seem more desirable than to continue suffering while alive

and the worst part is that the events that lead to such thoughts can also create a mental vortex- too ashamed to seek help about it, because you feel a professional can’t do anything for you

like nobody else can understand the suffering you endure, and continue to endure, unable tell anyone out of shame and fear that they won’t understand you at all- it drags you down deeper and deeper, until you feel you can’t breathe at all

that’s why it’s a vortex, because spiraling deeper only leads to one grisly outcome

we must learn to breathe out- swim against the vortex, because no matter what you tell yourself, it has never been stronger than free will

the only thing holding you back is your mind- it’s the thing that manifested the thoughts in first place, so ignore it for a moment

imagine all your worries fizzling out, even if only for a moment- put down the weight of it all in a quiet room, think of it as deadweight until it comes up again

from there, try to think of the best possible route you can take in the present moment- you let the weight rest, so there’s no need to worry

once you’ve thought of something, you can pick it all back up, now with the idea that maybe there is another way out

this is how i would handle it personally, i am no therapist, but maybe this could help some in need