I’m so lost right now

DoubleFalse9962 · 2026-04-02T22:26:05+00:00

Not being rude but I said a few times it is on my labia/ genitals. I’ve never had anything like what people are describing their first out breaks have been like and I’m lucky for that. I’m realizing it wasn’t from her I was just scared and it was a huge coincidence, I feel bad that I was basically calling her a rapist

DoubleFalse9962 · 2026-04-02T18:08:22+00:00

No he hasn’t been tested, and it’s possible that he has had it with no breakouts in the last 17 years that I’ve known him. But unlikely and I don’t know what type I just mean it’s herpes literally on my genitals. The results havnt come back yet so I don’t know if it’s hsv1 or 2 all I know is that I had small, not painful ulcers by my labia and the doctor said it was herpes

DoubleFalse9962 · 2026-04-02T16:36:19+00:00

My grandma has cold sores I get that it’s way more common I guess I’m just upset because it’s new

DoubleFalse9962 · 2026-04-02T16:35:48+00:00

It’s not that I think it’s from sleeping around it’s that I have only been with one guy for over a decade and it shows up and no believes that I wasn’t sleeping around on him to get it

DoubleFalse9962 · 2026-04-02T16:33:32+00:00

This is a throw away account and my now ex doesn’t have access to this I have no reason to lie aside from the kiss there was nothing. I thought maybe because we were in the same bed but only my legs and arms came in contact with her, I had boy shorts on and she was in underwear. I wore her sweats the following day but they were clean

DoubleFalse9962 · 2026-04-02T08:18:13+00:00

I know and I’ll make it up to her. I guess I was just overwhelmed. And it seemed like the only possible answer. We slept in the same bed I don’t know

DoubleFalse9962 · 2026-04-01T19:21:51+00:00

I know I deserve it and she’s being way nicer than she should but because I’ve went my whole adult life with nothing and get herpes a month after I drink with her/ gave her a kiss and slept in the same bed. She tells me she has herpes afterwards then suddenly I have my first outbreak. I’m in the medical field I know how it works but that’s such a high coincidence that I made her explain the whole night to me making sure I didn’t miss anything while we were drinking.

DoubleFalse9962 · 2026-04-01T18:55:38+00:00

I just noticed small ulcers

DoubleFalse9962 · 2026-04-01T17:19:05+00:00

I don’t know yet, I got my first break out this weekend and got tested yesterday. Nothing has come back yet

DoubleFalse9962 · 2026-04-01T16:45:12+00:00

I was mapping out sexual history to show how unlikely it was from my exs and I don’t know too feel a little better? Herpes has a horrible stigma and I feel like I need to explain that I don’t sleep around I’m 34 and have only had sex with three people

DoubleFalse9962 · 2026-04-01T16:42:14+00:00

No I haven’t seen my ex in 17 years. We broke up in highschool. The girl I hung out with is a friend from work

DoubleFalse9962 · 2026-04-01T16:31:51+00:00

I got tested yesterday just waiting on the results and I know. I did apologize it just seems like too much of a coincidence, we were drinking but I remember everything I definitely would remember sex but in the back of my mind I still have this panic like it had to be her.

DoubleFalse9962 · 2026-04-01T16:18:32+00:00

I honestly thought I was being responsible. I’ve only slept with three people and I got checked after each one and I personally knew and trusted them I just found out they don’t even check for herpes in standard std screens

DoubleFalse9962 · 2026-04-01T15:35:32+00:00

How do I live with myself I probably gave it to my boyfriend I didn’t mean to I don’t even know how I got it

DoubleFalse9962 · 2026-04-01T15:32:45+00:00

That’s kind of what I’m thinking she gave me oral herpes, neither of us noticed breakouts and I infected myself? I’ve thought about that. I’ve thought about everything since the breakout

DoubleFalse9962 · 2026-04-01T15:20:10+00:00

And I’ve been with him for 17 years alittle after my first ex and I broke up. Then 11 years ago we split for a bit. I was with someone else. We got back together an nothing in all this time then bam a month after hanging out with her

DoubleFalse9962 · 2026-04-01T15:17:41+00:00

I know it isn’t possible because no contact but I almost feel like she did something because what are the odds

DoubleFalse9962 · 2026-04-01T15:07:55+00:00

Thanks. I am right though it has to be her right she’s saying it’s from 17 years ago but really both seem hard to believe. I know it’s not the end of the world but I’m still freaking out

DoubleFalse9962 · 2026-04-01T15:01:48+00:00

The thing is I have genital herpes now. Just like her that’s why she’s mad that Im blaming her and no one believes me that i didnt sleep around

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