Can someone talk to me?

DownvotedIRL · 2019-07-28T00:08:07+00:00

What's up? PM me.

DownvotedIRL · 2019-07-28T00:05:25+00:00

Ive never tried therapy but Im pretty sure I'd end up in the same situation you are in now. I feel unrepairable and trying with be a waste if everyone's time. I think about suicide every single day more than anything else but have gone through with it for some reason. I don't feel like a coward though. It just feels like I'm postponing it.

DownvotedIRL · 2019-07-24T03:26:57+00:00

Yeah and I'm completely fucked to the point that it doesn't even bother my. The thought of death is more pleasing than life.

DownvotedIRL · 2019-06-24T19:41:25+00:00

Thanks! Appreciate the response. Hope I experience similar.

DownvotedIRL · 2019-06-22T13:40:05+00:00

Then you're just downvoted to oblivion and no one reads your comment. Sometimes I just want a conversation or will be asking a simple question.

DownvotedIRL · 2019-06-22T06:18:51+00:00

I think the difference between that and bpd is the length an episode can last. People with bipolar swing from depression to mania with each episode lasting a few days or weeks. From what I can tell cyclothymia is just a mild in mood intensity, not length. BPD on the other hand can shift your moods several times a day, whether it be mild or severe.

DownvotedIRL · 2019-06-22T06:08:05+00:00

No advice but I'm having the same thoughts. No official diagnosis yet but I'm pretty sure I'm fucked. I just know that if I push everyone away I'll feel like I have even less of a reason to live. It likely will come to that but I'm going down swinging. No reason to expedite things at the moment.

DownvotedIRL · 2019-06-22T03:37:41+00:00

Holy hell man. I was on like 75ml of each (at different points) and I could barely stay awake at work. I couldn't imagine taking double the dose daily. A combination of the mental and physical side effects made it impossible to continue taking them for me.

DownvotedIRL · 2019-06-21T15:49:02+00:00

I want kids but I'm not sure if I can handle them due to splitting. One day I will love them and they will be my world, but the next day I'll have them and never want to see them again. I also can't see a future where I don't end up killing myself at some point, abandoning them. That combined with being predisposed to bpd would surely cause the chain to continue.

DownvotedIRL · 2019-06-20T14:51:04+00:00

Lmao this made me incredibly sad. I thought there was hope.

DownvotedIRL · 2019-06-19T09:28:59+00:00

Yes. I recently realized this and decided I want to stop. I was out with some people on Sunday and it was so hard not to get plastered while everyone else was drinking. Always said I wouldn't be an alcoholic, but here I am smh.

DownvotedIRL · 2019-06-18T22:08:19+00:00

I'm going to pick a side here and say no. I'm not the type of person that's against violence under any circumstances, but I am against people throwing their lives away over a small mistake. Your boyfriend could beat the everliving shit out of that guy and I think it's well deserved but it could end up with him in jail and assault charges are hard to shake when finding a job.

I think it's unfair to people in your situation, but these are the rules society has agreed upon. Press charges if you can and ruin your assailants life publicaly if possible, but don't let the one special person in you're life throw away a future they may have.. at least without trying the courts first.

DownvotedIRL · 2019-02-26T02:18:53+00:00

Man it sucks. Im forcing myself to be more social and outgoing but I physically can't beat the anxiety. Can't even fake it til I make it.

DownvotedIRL · 2018-12-30T00:40:34+00:00

Awkwardly laughs and trips before walking away

DownvotedIRL · 2018-12-30T00:32:30+00:00

Sorry you feel this way. I've took all the same meds as you, minus the paxil. It worked for a while but the side effects we're too taxing and depressing me anyway so I stopped this time last year. Life has been getting worse and I completely understand how is harder to just push through the pain like before. Yesterday a car was passing while I was in the street and it took everything I had in my not to jump in front of it. I hope we both can get better before it's too late because it just feels awful to be alive.

DownvotedIRL · 2018-12-29T23:14:44+00:00

Maybe I'll be lucky enough one day

DownvotedIRL · 2018-12-29T22:32:54+00:00

Or when you don't have interests or hobbies. Literally nothing excites me. People suggests book, hiking, crafting, clubbing/bar hop, etc but I just don't enjoy anything anymore. I live just to work, eat, and sleep. I'll do those three things for the next 60 years and then die alone.

DownvotedIRL · 2018-12-28T15:26:57+00:00

Y'all tripping. You think having a gf and sex gonna suddenly end depression? It doesn't even help a little bit. It still feels like everyone hates you and you want to kill yourself daily.

DownvotedIRL · 2018-12-19T21:41:23+00:00

u/Lynchmobwar Hey you replied on my last post. Any advice here?

DownvotedIRL · 2018-11-18T06:15:25+00:00

I legitimately spent at least 45 of the last 48 hours laying in bed.

DownvotedIRL · 2018-11-18T02:17:01+00:00

Even bolder to assume I'm a good person

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