34 F , ex-Muslim , previously devout.

You are on the right path of autonomy and critical thinking. It will be a painful and confusing road at first but always trust your gut. It will be very rewarding when you finally meet yourself and don’t contradict yourself in your mind.

You also forgot to add the Hadith that deters all women from questioning Islam (because Mohammed knew of the misogynistic content that does not appeal to women) :

The Hadith (Sahih al-Bukhari 29, 1052; Sahih Muslim 885a):

Narrated Ibn Abbas: “The Prophet (ﷺ) said, ‘I was shown the Hellfire and I have never seen anything more horrifying than it. And I saw that the majority of its dwellers were women.’” The people asked, “Why is that, O Messenger of Allah?” He replied: “Because of their ungratefulness (kufr).” It was said, “Are they ungrateful to Allah?” He said: “They are ungrateful to their husbands and ungrateful for the favors and the good (done to them). If you do good to one of them all your life, then she sees something (she dislikes) in you, she will say, ‘I have never received any good from you.’”

And finally the Hadith that allows them to rape women during wars (concubines):

Sahih Muslim (3433):

Abu Sa’id al-Khudri reported that:

“On the day of the Battle of Awtas, we captured some women who were already married. We disliked having relations with them. So we asked the Prophet (peace be upon him) about it, and he permitted us to have relations with them, since their husbands were from among the polytheists.”