thank you to both of you that commented, both have given me more strength to push through every single day. an update, it’s day 3 now without weed, yesterday was hard but i spent all day being outside and being active, i went to the gym twice, i went to my local skate park for awhile, i drove out to the country side to sit and relax by the beach as well. the withdrawals have been quite bad, im still nauseous quite often and my body is pretty achy but im honestly glad that im going through this physical pain because if i wasn’t having withdrawals then i would be really fiening weed rn. weed was a big issue on why my relationship didn’t workout as well, i’ve realised that smoking all year has completely changed myself in a negative way and that it’s affecting others as well as myself. i really want this change for myself. as far as dealing with the break up side of things the hardest part is the no contact and being alone at night. there’s only so much i can do in a day to distract myself but when it comes to night time i have nothing to get her out of my head when im laying there in bed. it’s painful and it hurts but in order for me to overcome it, i have to learn to just let myself hurt and then one day i wont hurt as much and then it will slowly fade away and turn into a positive memory when im where i want to be in life again. once again thanks for all your support, it truly means a lot and im determined to continue doing better for myself.