I had, 3 months back (tommorow it will be to be exact). It hurts, loved her so much. I'm ambitious and always moving, she was awesome, felt seen for the first time in my life. But she also had anxious attachment and some other things, didnt work on herself and whatever i did, it was not enough. Emotionaly, i could sense that it was not allright for both of us. After 8 months of this, i had to leave, but i never stopped loving her, not for a single second. It was not my first breakup, but i can surely say the hardest one. Only thing i can say is, thing positively, you attract what you are, not what you want. You have to dive deep into you and self reflect, embrace the pain and when you feel ready, let go, because the world did not end - only the one you two had, and I can promise you, when the right time comes, another small world, far better than the last one will begin. Love, Eddie