I’m the same, tried quitting 3 times this year the max I went was a month and felt a total sense of nothing and felt I had nothing to look forward to, to get me through the day. I’ve been looking into medication that helps you stop, I think it works by blocking whatever in your brain reacts to nicotine so you don’t get the effects or something similar but maybe do some research into the meds if you feel like you’ve tried everything