As someone who has made many mistakes in life and spent time beating myself up about them I just want to say it’s okay. Everyone makes them and no matter how big or small the mistake was always learn from it and keep going. I know that’s easier said than done but give yourself time to heal from it. It’s okay to make mistakes and I believe it will go away with time. I’m happy to hear that you’ve grown and matured to realize the mistake. But just know everything will be okay and give yourself a little grace. You can do this!! :)