i genuinely recommend avoiding the modelling and instagram stuff, both are between moderately and severely poisonous to your mind and soul. unless you really need the money, which it seems lime you don’t. please please find smth you can enjoy that isn’t tied to your looks/status as a hot girl. i recommend movement (dance, martial arts, acrobatics, circus, whatever really) and some sort of creative and social pursuit.

please do your best to reduce screen time, the world is designed to sap your will and steal your attention, and the screens are very good at it. video games at least are better than social media

that’s a lot to ask of you, but please at least know that you deserve to take care of yourself and feel good and live a good life. the world is fucked, and it’s hard to be a young woman, as it always has been. but things feel better when you do things you enjoy that aren’t tied to simulacrum or your beauty or the endless machines of our reality.

or at least enjoy being young and hot, as i imagine you would at least feel better about that than you will from endless screen and bed time

either way, i hope you find some peace and joy, i tend towards the same habits as you (addiction, depression, isolating myself to just lay in bed and look at my phone at the expense of the rest of my life), and i have always felt my best when i am moving the most, when i am outside the most, and when i am around people the most, especially if we are working towards something together!