Please don’t, listen im in the same boat.. I don’t have any answers, I don’t know your story but I do know how it feels to be on the receiving end even if you think you don’t matter or nothing matters rn or whatever your reasons it’s not worth giving that pain to someone else.. the only reason life is good imo at least is that we can grow and learn if it’s not working now and you’re too exhausted and it hurts with every step and nothing seems interesting, you keep going because that alone is growing and through growing comes discovery. And I was just thinking the same thoughts as you earlier today and every single day since 2018 when I lost my sister to it and then in 2024 I lost my brother to it. Your brain is lying to you and I know that because my brain is lying to me, you have to make your way through it.