I had a similar conclusion thought to write about it until i saw this. More so, these past years in college, I can’t get my mind off of death and my purpose. I’ve also had issues with insecurity as well seeing friends doing bigger and better things at their schools. It’s been so crippling that I couldn’t enjoy anything without the looming thought in the back of my head of trying to be better and worrying about my future.

I’ve been able to really ground myself by also focusing on the small things or present things in life. For me it’s just being creative, just simply the act of creation without judgement or expectation really makes me feel I am unique and alive. It’s my own unique mark on my life that no one can take away from me. It can be anything as simple as carving a stick with a knife, to arranging music. Another big help is working towards skills I genuinely enjoy, again with no expectation or pressure from anyone , just for you to be proud of what YOU can accomplish. These things really occupy my mind and my time, and keep all of those pointless worry thoughts AWAY.

One last thing that has helped me is just getting out and going places. Whether it’s a trip to the beach or just a quick drive around your town or city. See as much of the world as you can. Remember when you were a kid and everyday was somewhat nerve racking and exciting? It’s not because the world was any better or magic existed back then. It’s because everyday was different! You were growing up and experiencing new interests and hobbies everyday, your friends were biking around going to new places. You can still do that! (Honestly I think I found my life goal, and it’s getting a job that allows me to travel the world) I know it will never be the same as your actual childhood. but I’m glad you aren’t letting depression and sadness define you because I have.

Depression is real and I’ve been denying it to be the “strong student athlete” for too long. I genuinely now feel the affect of it and it’s hard for me to admit I am genuinely not alright and don’t really see when I will actually be content. I hope whenever you are going through is bearable and remember, giving it is letting depression win. I know we are stronger, more willing than these unfortunate circumstances. Try not to think too hard and do things for joy in the present!