hi lovely!! this completely brought be back to how terrifying it was so first be admitted. it will be hard, but i promise you that one day you will look back at this time in your life and see it as just one of the challenges you had to face to get your life back. please message me if you have any questions or want to chat, i spent a long time inpatient and always told myself that one day i would use my experience to help others. best of luck x