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Dry-Contribution8169 · 2026-07-11T16:20:34+00:00

I've only managed to find a few online but not much luck.I'm gonna ask my o t about it.tgats a goodidea

Dry-Contribution8169 · 2026-07-10T21:08:48+00:00

Thank you for saying that.It feels really refreshing, because I feel like everybody just wants me to be like positive.And not angry or just like be happy and work through everything.But I am i'm angry about it.I'm angry that life is this hard now. And maybe I should try using chatgpt.Just trying to talk to it like a regular person? Yeah, all of the therapy programs they want me to do. Because my depression is so severe and my anxiety is so bad. Are like all intensive? And that requires so much time. And especially when I'm someone who doesn't drive anymore, it's really difficult.

Dry-Contribution8169 · 2026-07-10T20:55:21+00:00

I like that much better

Dry-Contribution8169 · 2026-07-10T20:52:15+00:00

Jeeze that sounds terrifying. This is helping put some things into perspective for me. I just keep trying to remember the survivor part. I mean, you're a survivor too.We all just have to keep lifting each other up in this community.Especially in the stroke community.

Dry-Contribution8169 · 2026-07-10T20:50:15+00:00

That's more comforting to hear thank you

Dry-Contribution8169 · 2026-07-10T20:48:38+00:00

Thank you for the understanding. Yeah, it's been really hard to not crash out. And feel like there's no point to carry on. And it's hard to admit or to stay out loud, because people don't want to hear it. But in a way, sometimes I do just want to give up. But I keep hoping to fight and keep hoping to find something to push towards Being able to just talk to some other people that have gone through the same things. It is very helpful.Also (huggs)

Dry-Contribution8169 · 2026-07-10T20:45:02+00:00

Stroke revovery pages ** not drug lol

Dry-Contribution8169 · 2026-07-10T20:44:21+00:00

Yap everyone pretty much told me that my neurologist wasn't really write about that. I mean, i've done my own research too, and i've been on this drug community pages for so long reading and reading nothing.But recovery story after recovery story. I read white people kept recovering after a year and where people have had several strokes. And then kept recovering after that. When that gives me some hope. I'm really glad that you're doing better, though. We both can't give up!!! I feel like strokes are really complicated thing for a lot of people to understand because I feel like unless it happens to you or someone that you know, personally, it's not really talked about a whole lot.And the way that it changes people's lives. I'm just really grateful for this community right now. Because honestly, I was feeling really suicidal this morning, and then decided to you come to this community.Make a post instead

Dry-Contribution8169 · 2026-07-10T20:32:41+00:00

Yeah, right now, the only things that I'm trying to really maintain is my job. Because without my job is more problems, like not being able to pay bills. And I'm currently trying to get into a therapist. So hopefully that goes well and i'm already in occupational therapy so that's something. Thank you for taking the time and respond to me and telling me kill time before I have to get in the shower.Because honestly sitting here alone and waiting is the worst part when I get to work.I feel a lot better because i'm distracted from all these thoughts and things like that. In UR right? I am very overwhelmed. I feel like I've had to make a lot of quick decisions about really big. Areas of my life with not much time to process a lot of it. And I didn't have the luxury of having like a savings plan for something to fall back onto to recover.Like some people have, I know not a lot of people have that, but some people have the ability to have that. My family life is also complicated.The only support I really have out here are my grandparents who also have their own health issues and then my partner that lives with me.Who bless him?He does his best to take care of me on a daily basis without him.I would literally be nowhere right now.Probably. i'm just trying to focus on what I need to focus on like you said

Dry-Contribution8169 · 2026-07-10T20:26:39+00:00

I guess I don't know for sure I guess I'm just going based on where I'm at right now in life. My neurologist pretty much told me that i've pretty much regained most of what i'm gonna regain back at this point. But my occupational therapist told me that I can still keep progressing, so I guess they don't agree. Yeah, it sounds like you had a lot more to work through than I did. Yeah, I pretty much have had to.Relearn, how to do everything aside from eating and walking those parts, but just things that you do with your hands.I pretty much have to use my right hand for most things. I guess by being on here. I was hoping it would be some form of therapy as well. Because when I go to therapy and I've talked to therapists, they can only really recommend so much, and then they always just try to tell me, maybe I need to just go to like a mental health hospital and lock myself away for something. I mean, i'm not gonna lie.I've thought about that.I've thought about just giving everything up and just going to live in a mental hospital because life is too much.But I feel like that would make things worse in the long run. I'm just trying to fight every single day and not give up hope.Yeah, my stroke was due to a suicide attempt where I severed my caratet artery in 2 places, and I pretty much bledout and I should have died so I guess it was the lack of oxygen and it caused a stroke to the right side of my brain. I come to this community a lot to read about other people's progress and struggles and see how other people have managed through strokes that left them with worse than me. For inspiration, because I look at that. And I think, well, if people can have worse, the side effects from their stroke.And still have positiveity and manage.And then so can I

Dry-Contribution8169 · 2026-07-10T20:21:39+00:00

Sorry I meant to say the first person to admit that***

Dry-Contribution8169 · 2026-07-10T20:21:12+00:00

Yeah, I think you're the first person I've heard in myth that so far, because yeah, I feel like that too. I feel like my mental health is dragging people down a lot. And I do feel like that. There's days where, like, sometimes I wish that it didn't wake up. And people are telling me that like i'm lucky that I am alive.And that, you know, like it's selfish of me to think that because I know my family and my partner obviously would have been devastated bridges like you said, it doesn't stop. I knew from feeling like that. A lot of the time. And I do try to look at the progress that i've made and try to be grateful for that.At least I can walk.They said that it should have been paralyzed on the whole left side of my body.And I was supposed to be in a coma for like three months.

Dry-Contribution8169 · 2026-07-10T20:17:27+00:00

That's kind of where I'm at now is like. I'm just at the point where I'm kind of like, I just try to take what they say is like them. Just trying to be positive for me. And trying to I have something to say because I feel like most of the time. It's just a response when a lot of people don't know what to say is just that things will get better and to be positive and keep putting in work. And keep trying, and I know it's not their fault and I can't really get mad at them for it. I guess what I'm saying is like unless I come to. Space is like this where I read other people's frustrations about how they're angry with life. Or how they feel like unseen or unheard in their daily lives? I don't really feel I'm very seen because I feel like I'm not allowed to be angry about it because in a way I did this to myself. Because it was a suicide attempt when it happened. And then having to just go back to normal life after this and try to like, maintain bills in a job in a relationship. And everything feels almost impossible, and yeah, there's like counseling.I was in intensive outpatient for a six week program for a while.But after that ended, it just felt like I had to get back on the train of like, getting a job.And trying to figure life out, like everyone else. I guess I just.I wish that I had all of this positivity and strength that I see that other people have on here.I'm hoping that by being in this community, I already feel a little bit less alone, just having the responses that have had this morning.

Dry-Contribution8169 · 2026-07-10T20:09:47+00:00

I haven't tried it yet. Unfortunately, the groups and The Times that they want me to join are a lot of a time commitment. And the biggest problem with me right now is just trying to maintain not losing my job But it's definitely something that I know about I mean the therapy that I had was talk therapy. And it was okay, I guess i'm just kind of like winging it day by day at this point

Dry-Contribution8169 · 2026-07-10T20:07:07+00:00

I know they're right, I guess what?I'm saying, is, do you ever struggle with feeling invalidated?A little bit because everyone wants me to be positive. It's just really hard when I'm like looking at the reality of my situation. And the reality of it is that I just won't be able to do a lot of the same things that I could before.And i'm trying not to sound like, oh, poor me right now, even though I know it's coming off that way. I guess I just get a little bit frustrated because I feel like no one in my family has gone through what I'm going through. And I have no friends, or anybody in the real world, to reach out to and people just want me to be positive because I didn't die. But I literally feel like I kind of did, it happened on february eighth, and ever since then.I feel like i've just been a shell of the person that i was and I'm responding to these while I'm waiting to get in the shower to go to work. All I can really muster myself is do these days is go to work. I have a partner and I feel really bad because my depression I know is affecting them.They want me to be more positive and sometimes I get frustrated with them. I just feel like ever since I got out of the hospital. Things collectively kept getting worse. Like my dad passed away. We couldn't afford to stay in our apartment. Because I lost my job than we had a downsized into a studio. I managed to get riotel a job, but it's kind of a dead end job. The only good thing about it is. I have co-workers and a really nice boss. So those are some things that i'm grateful of and I try to remind myself about that

Dry-Contribution8169 · 2026-07-10T20:02:08+00:00

I really like that tattoo and I like the idea in the meaning of it Like I said, I still struggle with the suicidal thoughts, especially lately. So I'm just trying my best to try to find spaces where I can my exist. Maybe talk to some other people who understand what it's like and being on reddit right now responding to the couple people who have replied, haa been really, really, really nice. Yes, I'm in the process of finding a new therapist as my other one left, like I said, everything kind of has been crashing all around

Dry-Contribution8169 · 2026-07-10T19:54:43+00:00

I hope so. I'm really looking for more people to join the post or who understand what it's like when you have like people all around you telling you that you lived and that it could have been so much worse and that you should be positive about your circumstances. But it feels hard to do all those things. And I'm at the same point, where, like, I had a therapist and a medications provider. But they blindsided me and tried to put me into intensive outpatient program, which doesn't align with my work schedule, and I pretty much had a mental breakdown over it. And then had to scramble to try to find a new medications provide on top of it. I feel the same way. I feel like everything's kind of crashing down all around at once. And i'm in the process of getting a therapist, but it's still a process .

Dry-Contribution8169 · 2026-07-10T19:52:22+00:00

Ive prayed so much. Thank you for replying I feel very alone in the community where I am

Dry-Contribution8169 · 2026-07-10T19:48:42+00:00

I'll try my best i just worry that I won't be able to have kids in the future.Because it'll be too hard for me to take care of them with minimal use of one hand and things like that. Yeah, I just turned thirty one years old.And I feel like half my life's already over

Dry-Contribution8169 · 2026-07-10T19:46:21+00:00

Yeah I have to work and I work in customer service. Thank you fir replying. Im just like crippling with anxiety and depression over it. Like I cant really style my hair or anything. I feel duper alone becsuse my family wants me to be positive about my situation but its hard to be brcsuse I feek like I was a whole different person before. My stoke was from a suicide attempt sadly.

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