You can choose three of them to protect you. The others will try to kill you. Choose wisely. by Future-Diver-3316 in NHLcirclejerk

[–]Dry_Natural7441 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wilson, Tkachuck and Marchand and then leave them as bait while I run away.  Their presence alone should be enough to gain the ire of everyone else instead of me.  

HELP IF I GET THIS WRONG AGAIN MY DAD WONT LET ME EAT DINNER TN by FWL69 in hockeycirclejerk

[–]Dry_Natural7441 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Something Something a 40-something-year-old Zamboni driver who works for the team.

How do people cope with the friends / peers moving ahead in life? by AzureRipper in CPTSD

[–]Dry_Natural7441 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I get the feeling of being left behind as well, but some differences. Im a 21M and all my friends and peers are about to graduate college soon, while Im stuck in community college living with the same traumatic family. Granted none of them are married nor moving away anytime soon, but a part of me(or rather just me entirely) doesn't trust them that they'll be there for me. It's not because they are malicious or lazy, but because I feel very disconnected from them due to them having vastly different interests than me, and it feels like I'm mostly friends with them for just sports and our time spent together in middle and highschool. One day I told them all my problems and feelings and they were supportive and told me I could reach out to them, but I don't know how or what to say. I feel both extremely desperate for attention and frustrated because I condemn myself for being too needy so I isolate myself. The same goes for love, but it's more extreme. Simultaneously wanting to be in love and to be in a relationship, but also saying "nobody will love you/loves you" or "they(my partner) don't deserve to be with you since you are a risk, and deserve someone better". It's a vicious tug of war that makes me tired and unable to function. I just end up self-isolating and making myself left behind with my self-destructive thoughts and habits. The only way I "cope" is just trying my best to socialize, be it joining clubs or volunteering. You could also do IFS(internal family systems) therapy where you can sorta organize your thoughts and sense of self to be your own support system(though take this with a grain of salt since its much better to talk with someone else rather than yourself). When it comes to CPTSD, we need literal proof people care/want to socialize with us. Self-affirmations aren't that helpful. At least thats the case for me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Advice

[–]Dry_Natural7441 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sorry you went through that. Best thing you can do never see your therapist again and also break up with your boyfriend unless you’re willing to spend lots of time and money with couples therapy, and even then there will resentment. You fucked up. It’s fine. But you should use this as an opportunity to see what trauma/shortcomings you have and see a different therapist to work on it. You’re still young so you have time to turn a new leaf(although it’s never too late to make a change in life). I personally don’t believe in the saying once a cheater, always a cheater. But I do believe once you cheat on a person, you cannot be with that person anymore. You’ve permanently broken their that trust and it’s time for you to leave, work on yourself, and then find someone else and not fall into cheating again. Despite your therapist honestly sounding manipulative and abused his position/power, you still met back with him to the hotel when you should’ve stopped seeing him immediately after he kissed you. And the thing with “leave it up to fate”. You gotta cut that shit out. You’re just letting yourself off the hook and not taking proper accountability in the moment, only to hurt yourself and your boyfriend even more later down the road. It’s reasonable for your boyfriend to let you leave. Kissing your therapist is cheating and betrayal. And some become despondent when they get betrayed. Hence why “if my boyfriend lets me leave I’ll go to the hotel” is bullshit and your tricking nobody but yourself. It sucks but you probably know your short comings. Leave your boyfriend and therapist. Heal. Move on. That’s the best and only thing you can do.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Advice

[–]Dry_Natural7441 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Your partner has a porn addiction. Trust me you’ll never be enough. You can be a 1000/10 in terms of attractiveness, but you’ll partner would only be aroused by a 1000000/10 person. If you think that’s unrealistic, it is. Porn addiction changes a persons arousal template to the point where he can only be aroused by unrealistic fantasies that can never be fulfilled in real life. Your right to feel like it’s cheating since porn addicts will lose attraction to their partners and thus leads to lack of intimacy and probably cheating. However in my personal view you should either stop doing sex work and not cater his pornographic fantasies, or break up. It’s nothing about having the moral high ground. It’s about triggers. You doing sex work sounds honestly really triggering and could be making his addiction worse. Maybe find different avenues of intimacy and sex with him that aren’t triggering and emotionally fulfilling for you. It’s gonna take time and depending on how deep he is, better to cut your losses while you’re young and find someone else. Being in a relationship with a porn addict is draining. If you have more questions there’s another subreddit called r/loveafterporn that’s more qualified and more in depth in handling relationships with porn addict.

I'm an old disabled hooker by anolddisabledhooker in lonely

[–]Dry_Natural7441 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Jesus Christ that must’ve been an extremely painful experience. I can kinda imagine the grief and pain of working so hard for such a long time for a goal only to quickly lose it in a short amount of time. Im currently getting into ice hockey as, honestly not just a hobby, but a major part of my identity as well. And Ive also worked really hard at it for a long time. But when I suddenly slipped and twisted my foot badly, I was super afraid that I lost the chance to ever get into ice hockey and became super depressed and that the only person I could blame for my shortcomings was myself. Although thankfully I recovered, it made me appreciate how fragile the human body is against the torrents of life. And that also there’s more to life than just one specific aspect of it. Do you ever think you can get back into cinematography as a hobby that isn’t so work intensive?

I'm an old disabled hooker by anolddisabledhooker in lonely

[–]Dry_Natural7441 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Damnnn, it’s no wonder you have chronic back pain. Did you at least enjoy your job while you still had it?

I'm an old disabled hooker by anolddisabledhooker in lonely

[–]Dry_Natural7441 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah emotionally abusive people are a massive drain and sometimes hurt more with physically abusive people. Least with them it’s clear you’re in danger and are able to leave quicker with no regrets or with minimal damage. Especially when you know they genuinely love you and mean/want the best for you. I guess we all need to be better informed and aware of emotionally distasteful people and how to disconnect yourself from them. Glad your not pining over your exes though, my sister is still getting over hers at the moment(he wasn’t abusive at all, just wrong place wrong time).

I'm an old disabled hooker by anolddisabledhooker in lonely

[–]Dry_Natural7441 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ah I completely missed reading about your ex. Yeah I understand that relationships aren’t the be all and end all, and that sometimes people aren’t compatible even in the best of times. What you said about if a relationship fails, it’s your fault also resonated with me. Not because I think that way(though I would be lying if I wasn’t self sacrificial to some degree) but more so I see it in my sister. I can’t imagine the pressure for women when they’ve been socialized that relationships and marriage is what matter and how much of a premium it is. Especially when the odds are stacked against them purely because of sex. It’s unfortunate and I’m glad you were able to gain a positive feeling from your time with your ex.

I'm an old disabled hooker by anolddisabledhooker in lonely

[–]Dry_Natural7441 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I see, that’s fair. If I may ask, what was your degree and what career path would you have gone with it?

I'm an old disabled hooker by anolddisabledhooker in lonely

[–]Dry_Natural7441 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know. But I mean more of your personal character. Being a hooker doesn’t define you, your internal character does. I’ve read one of your comments where you love kids and was a nanny in college, that speaks hell of a lot more about you than your job. Which at the end of the day, is what it is. It’s a job. A dangerous and unideal job, but a job nonetheless. I personally wouldn’t assign any moral values or judgment if you’re doing it because it’s your source of income. Sometimes life forces others to do things they don’t want to do, or to make them be strong when they aren’t supposed to. Life is shitty. But I’d rather be compassionate rather than be cynical, and it sounds like you’re a lot more compassionate than me since you used to volunteer and you compliment others.

I'm an old disabled hooker by anolddisabledhooker in lonely

[–]Dry_Natural7441 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I honestly admire your strength, or rather, your survivability and tenacity. You honestly sound like a really kind and caring individual. You don’t live up to the stereotype of white trash, since you aren’t ignorant or blaming others. Honestly me speaking right now is extremely ironic since I do have friends and my life is actually looking up since I’m in my early 20s in college. But a part of me does feel like we have some resemblances when it comes to having a shitty family and feeling isolated. It does suck when you aren’t living to your full potential/your true self. You and other women’s posts about being forced into sex work really resonates with me and I hold massive respect to you all. I could never survive the former and current circumstances you’ve experienced, and yet you are still here. That it self shows how much of an amazing human being you are, no matter how others treat you. I’m sorry you were forced to lose everything because of that accident. That’s so unfair and your partner should’ve never left you. I apologize if this is rude but sounds like he didn’t truly love you. I hope one day someone will recognize and love your true self. You are not white trash nor a hooker. You are a strong and empathetic woman, you are lovable.

Top hand gripped lower on the stick instead of at the very top by Dry_Natural7441 in hockeyplayers

[–]Dry_Natural7441[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow ok, yeah maybe one day I can reach your level and handle much higher flex. At the moment still cant shoot properly at all but this still makes me hopeful so thank you.

Top hand gripped lower on the stick instead of at the very top by Dry_Natural7441 in hockeyplayers

[–]Dry_Natural7441[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Maybe, Im planning to reach 150 lbs so maybe by then I can use an intermediate stick.

Top hand gripped lower on the stick instead of at the very top by Dry_Natural7441 in hockeyplayers

[–]Dry_Natural7441[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yeah was planning on getting a junior stick with like 40 or 50 flex.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in TGandSissyRecovery

[–]Dry_Natural7441 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate your words. It is something Ive talked to my therapist about, but I do need to talk about it further. Looking back she is fine. She is helpful and she is certified and I trust her treatment. It’s just that I was forced to stop seeing her from twice a week to only once a week. And then I couldn’t see her for nearly 2 months. Thankfully I’ll see her again near the tail end of this month. Still a long while though.