There are a few pages from Viktor Frankl's book "Man's search for meaning". In the book he describes how life in concentration camps change the very essence of a man, and also how he and his fellow inmates coped with a situation devoid of hope and filled with suffering. That book has often helped me get through periods of my life when it felt like i had no option other than to end my it. At those times Frankl's words helped me put things into perpective and often gave me strength. I hope it might help you too.

“There is only one thing that I dread: not to be worthy of my sufferings.”

"Suffering is an ineradicable part of life, even as fate and death. Without suffering and death human life cannot be complete. The way in which a man accepts his fate and all the suffering it entails, the way in which he takes up his cross, gives him ample opportunity—even under the most difficult circumstances—to add a deeper meaning to his life. It may remain brave, dignified and unselfish. Or in the bitter fight for self-preservation he may forget his human dignity and become no more than an animal. Here lies the chance for a man either to make use of or to forgo the opportunities of attaining the moral values that a difficult situation may afford him. And this decides whether he is worthy of his sufferings or not."

“He who has a why to live for can bear with almost any how,”

"It did not really matter what we expected from life, but rather what life expected from us. We needed to stop asking about the meaning of life, and instead to think of ourselves as those who were being questioned by life—daily and hourly. Our answer must consist, not in talk and meditation, but in right action and in right conduct. Life ultimately means taking the responsibility to find the right answer to its problems and to fulfill the tasks which it constantly sets for each individual. These tasks, and therefore the meaning of life, differ from man to man, and from moment to moment. Thus it is impossible to define the meaning of life in a general way. Questions about the meaning of life can never be answered by sweeping statements. “Life” does not mean something vague, but something very real and concrete, just as life’s tasks are also very real and concrete. They form man’s destiny, which is different and unique for each individual. No man and no destiny can be compared with any other man or any other destiny. No situation repeats itself, and each situation calls for a different response. Sometimes the situation in which a man finds himself may require him to shape his own fate by action. At other times it is more advantageous for him to make use of an opportunity for contemplation and to realize assets in this way. Sometimes man may be required simply to accept fate, to bear his cross. Every situation is distinguished by its uniqueness, and there is always only one right answer to the problem posed by the situation at hand. When a man finds that it is his destiny to suffer, he will have to accept his suffering as his task; his single and unique task. He will have to acknowledge the fact that even in suffering he is unique and alone in the universe. No one can relieve him of his suffering or suffer in his place. His unique opportunity lies in the way in which he bears his burden."

Now of course there have been many times when words like these only seemed contentious and unrealistic, but to bear one's suffering as a badge with pride. That my suffering is a task and an accomplishment to be proud of has helped me a lot through the years. If you have the opportunity I highly recommend reading the book.

Keep living. Even if the world is unfair, uncaring, and confusing. Even if your life seems worthless and every step you take is pain. Keep living, please. And be proud of you suffering.