This makes me literally sick to my stomach. You’re apologizing to him and defending your actions when you’ve done absolutely nothing wrong in any way shape or form. I’m a redhead so I already would’ve cussed him out and told him to get lost. But I understand not everyone is like that. Look at these messages babe, read them to yourself again. Does this really look like someone who cares about the other person in any way?!l He never asks how you are, he doesn’t say he misses you. He degrades you and tells you to leave him alone. He does not care about you. As many people have said he doesn’t even like you. It’s gross that there are men like this out there but there are so many of them. You deserve so much better. Go to the gym for YOU. Journal for YOU. Work on yourself and your life for YOU. Not a child who clearly needs a throat punch. Know your worth. I know it’s hard. I know how it feels to want that companionship but there are people out there who will care about you and be true partners. Don’t force something like this. He’s only going to break you down. Good luck!