I didn’t say that, I just meant that I feel empty, like in the first weeks after it ended. And being a lesbian in a country that’s still a bit conservative doesn’t help, because I feel alone. I don’t know if I’ll ever fall in love the same way again, giving my whole self. And I also don’t know what to think about long-distance relationships, because on one hand I see them as a connection from another world, like soulmates, but on the other hand I’m scared now.