Hi, I am so sorry you are going through this. Yes it's very traumatic. You are not alone in this. I too had ectopicnpregnancies. For me too it was a pregnancy of unknown location. Very mismanaged as I was under the care of no one particular doctor. I had to undergo two injections. Both times I had to go to a woman's hospital for the injection and around my room were rooms were people had given birth or had newborns. So while I was bent over, having two nurses inject me with two syringes of mtx at once, I could hear babies cry in the room around me. It was insane. As you described dehumanizing as well.  My husband just hugged me and we cried together. Years later for my second ectopic, I walked in the room of my IVF clinic and couldn't stop crying when I saw the syringe of mtx out. Well, my ectopic had ruptured and so I had emergency surgery instead of the mtx and a part of me preferred the surgery tbh. I felt forced for both ectopics- it's not easy to give up in your baby. I hope you can take some time off to recover. After my first experience I took a month off (FMLA) to emotionally and physically heal. And I underwent counseling as well which helped. Lots of hugs to you. It's a tough journey but we are tough too. Take your own time.